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Tuesday, December 30, 2003


new years resolutions...i usually don't bother making them because i never keep them but sue got me in the mood so...

i think exercise more is going to be my number one thing...i have my pedometer now no reason not to start running again. also i haven't done my ab tape in a while...

eating healthier is also a big thing... i mean you might thing vegan=healthy food but not really. i live off bread and better than cream cheese mostly...yeah plenty of carbs but no real vitamins...except the ones that i take orally but yeah...

procrastination another big one....i've been trying to get over that for a while now though and i don't think i ever really will.

so i'll just try to eat right and exercise more and that's about it.

good new years resolutions i think.

i'm starting to like livejournal more than blogs.


weird.

i burned some cd back in july and i have no idea what it is.

it's called "unknown album" and includes "track 1" through "track 14"

it sorta sounds like...emo...screamo..punky emo?

not sure.

it's kinda good...i tried searching for some of the lyrics but nothing showed up.
one song went "i won't let you down too hard...just like a gun to my head...but it feels alright...i guess i'll see you on the other side."

sounds kinda like bad taking back sunday.

or really early taking back sunday before they got good or something.

hehe.


Monday, December 29, 2003


bowling was fun...i got two strikes! hehe dani and i had a contest going...but no! belinda suddenly got ridiculously good! bah.

met samira she was cool. we talked about child eating. mmm.

i like kim's skull better than marcy's but shhh...don't tell her. hehe.


hehe i forgot how much i love the devdas cd.


i was going to post about why i don't like rudolph the red nosed reindeer nor his sappy song but then i realized that i'd be a maddox poseur and well...i'm not as talented as maddox.

so we'll just leave that.

i had to have two coffees today to get me through the coma that is driving school.

at least i'll finally have my permit.

..i think.


kim's tattoo is so cool!

when i turn 18 i might get some type of body modification...be it ink or other device.

i'd have to think about it a long time though...if i got a tattoo it would be something really meaningful to me...i mean it's permanent!

i think i want it on my wrist though


i was watching "teamo supremo" the other day and one of the characters says "chi-kah"!

oh yeah and in vegas i watched some anime on cartoon network (cowboy bebop, inuyasha, and some other stuff) and i kinda liked it! some of the characters were really annoying though. oh yeah and i watched pokemon like i used to hehe. ah man i remember watching pokemon every single day in 6th grade.


Sunday, December 28, 2003


okay, okay trying not to get my hopes up but...

SOMA MIGHT BE A GO!!!!


my parents just agreed to take us!!

*dances around*

at times like this i believe that my parents really DO love me!!


YAYYYYY!!!!


okay okay. but nothing is certain yet.


i got my pedometer

guess i can start training

got a new tv.

i'd rather go to soma then get a new tv.

my mom keeps fucking getting my hopes up.


the butterfly effect looks like a good movie.

ashton kutcher and donnie darko-esque? i'm there.

had a conversation about changing the past today.

fuck with the past, fucks up the future.

come on i know you saw back to the future.


potter puppet pals has its own live journal


if you ever play mancala against me don't let me start. i think i perfected my strategy now...22 on the first go-around?

still..i want to play against someone! maybe maia or sue if we end up doing something (which we will god dammit even if we go see dramarama at the roxy)...eh we can always go skating and make fun of the "im so punnnnk" girls again or get lost in the movie theater..."is this gigli?!?!" hehe. good times.

heh i got underwear. it's the boy-cut kind...i like that style.

i thought someone stole my sheets but no there they are sitting on my bed. i'm too lazy to put them on my mattress.

so for 2 weeks my dad is having me do this beverage survey for him. it's incredibly annoying but hey i get 50 bucks for it. i have to record each and every "beverage" he drinks on this palm pilot. at first it was amusing but now it's just stupid. sooo many questions! and the palm pilot is messed up it won't go click so i end up stabbing it...now there's a dent in the plastic.

indian movies! i'm deprived.

i think i shall listen to indian music...haven't done that in a while. i ate at an indian restaurant the other day. they served goat cheese. ew.

watch me ramble! go!

body massage machine go!

BOTHER!!

POTTER PUPPET PALS! funniest thing ever.

following the butterflies following the butterflies
ronnikus explodicus!
BOOM!


i forgot to mention that i hate christmas songs too, sue.

they played like 50 billion different versions of "walking in a winter wonderland" while we were at vegas...that isn't even a christmas song. blah.

so then on thursday my mom said "last day of christmas songs!" but she was wrong. they were playing them on friday.


Saturday, December 27, 2003


oh yeah and i start driving lessons on monday! hurrah...a permit is finally within my grasp.


oh yeah and i got myself two new cds

thursday: five stories falling and
dropkick murphys: sing loud, sing proud

both very good


Hmm this might be a long post or not...depends on how tired i get. anyway vegas was tons of fun...but now that i'm back i'm sorta sad...soma seems like a no go (and i really REALLY wanted to go dammit) and Beeny's gone and Kim and Chry are leaving...but i'm supposed to go to Gal's sometime to watch Indian movies with Komal and Bianca Belinda and I might get together...anyway...

so monday morning we left for the longass car ride to vegas. I brought most of my homework with me but i slept most of the way so i didn't do much. I started the chem, got annoyed and stopped. Started math, got annoyed, stopped. So then I read the rest of the way. Interesting how i tend to get more carsick than most, but people tend to get carsick when they read in the car and i can read and not get sick...well i thought that was interesting.

So we finally got to vegas and we checked into our room...it was big! my mom said it was a party room...lol i think you coulda fit 6 people in that room...it had a nice big couch. anyway so then we went to a buffet at the orleans and it was...okay. not much to eat for vegans in vegas...especially at a buffet. i was waiting in line for the mongolian barbeque and the lady next to me was pretty gross...she kept picking at her meat with her fingers...wiggling it around and eating it with her bare hands...yuck. i told my mom about it and she kept cracking jokes about her..."you shoulda said 'arrrg me matey ye be wantin' a napkin with that?' because she was acting like a pirate" ha made me think of you kim. WHICH REMINDS ME...oh but you won't find out about that till later! MUAHAHAH!

anyway so it turns out that the Orleans (where we ate) has a new ice rink and they happened to have a hockey game going on at midnight. i know ice hockey team in vegas. well we have one so why not? anyway my dad was reluctant to take me to a hockey game at midnight, but he finally gave in. then we went back to the room and passed the time (eating shitty chinese food) until the game. oh yeah and i got two of my presents...a starbucks card and a joystick thingy that plugs into any tv and plays old namco games. it's so cool! i was playing dig dug and pacman and stuff on the hotel tv.

so midnight finally rolled around and we were off to the game. my mom didn't go with us...she preferred to gamble...on the penny machines! hahaha

mom: i hit the 2000 point bonus!
dad: so what is that, like 20 bucks?
mom:...yeah.

heh anyway so it was the las vegas wranglers vs the uhmm...bakersfield condors i believe. it was the first midnight hockey game in the history of professional hockey. sweet. i actually really really liked it. heh hockey is so violent. we were real close so you could really hear those guys being checked into the walls. ooh and then there were around 3 big fights! at one point the two guys threw off their gloves and were going at each other bare handed. the refs just stood back watching them. heh. the crowd really went wild, screaming and standing up. good times. the guys got 16 minute penalties though. heh. they also had these little contests between periods. one of them was musical chairs out on the ice...the most violent musical chairs game i've ever witnessed...and the team mascot "the duke" (uhhh what does a duke have to do with wranglers? also he was a big green thing. how is that a duke? meh. my dad said john wayne's nickname was the duke or something.)shot t-shirts into the crowd...pity when i rushed closer to him he shot a t-shirt to where our seats were...the guys behind me got it. there was also this blimp going around dropping paper things...my dad scrambled to get one and it was just a coupon for free buffalo wings. my dad likes free things but free buffalo wings is where he draws the line. (I don't eat buffalo! heh...jessica simpson is stupid.) anyway so the wranglers were tied up with the other guys...we left but they won during overtime.

tuesday my dad got me more shitty chinese food (for breakfast! it was some crappy no name brand..not even panda express. bleh.) and he got pissed when i didn't eat it. then we walked over to gameworks which is a gigantic arcade. my parents got me a 3 hour card (unlimited play for three hours whoopee!) and left to go gamble. i played a crapload of games...DDR of course...i waited till this girl who had never played before was playing..i'm not gonna play with those kids who spend their waking hours playing DDR. I also played this DDR-like guitar game...you press buttons when the lines reach the screen instead of arrows with your feet. I was doing pretty well until this snotty little kid came over and started bitching about how he wanted to play. "Hurry up! go faster! god how long are you going to take? i want to play now! let's go!" he whined. i wanted to smack him upside the head with my guitar. later he was playing a car game and i wanted to go over and bitch to him about taking so long, but i had my dignity. besides he was like 10 years old. then i played Dark Gauntlet Legends (one of my favorite games) for about half an hour with these kids. one of them was starting to get on my nerves with his superiority complex (i'm older AND taller than you so shut up!...i know...me? taller than someone?) so when he said "heyyyy how did you get on level 9?!" i told him simply, "because i'm awesome." then my parents came back and they watched me play some other games...i kinda wanted to play this virtual reality fighting game where when you kick your character kicks and so forth...but i didn't want to get my ass kicked by a 7 year old. oh yeah and there was a mechanical bull...i kinda wanted to do that but my dad wouldn't let me. "those things break peoples' backs you know!" yeah yeah dad that's why it's on the gauntlet. if sarah can do it then i can do it! uhm anyway...ooh and they had this giant rock climbing thing but i wasn't allowed to do that either.

Then we went to P.F. Chang's for dinner. it was really good! Then we tried to see the new pirate show...but it started raining so they canceled it. hah everyone was so pissed off. "i waited half an hour for this?!" i went inside to check out the gift shop...i was worried because Treasure Island changed their image. They are now "TI" and will have nothing to do with childish pirates. So i was worried that they wouldn't have anything piratey in the gift shop...but someone who likes pirates a lot might have gotten lucky.

that just reminds me that i was going to get chry hopping lederhosen lol.

wednesday....christmas eve..hmmm on wednesday i woke up early enough for my parents to take me out for breakfast. we went to a buffet of course. they had jew food! lol. the only buffet in vegas with a "happy hannukah" banner. mmm yeah it was okay, again not much vegan food. they had cream of wheat though. yum. then i went shopping with my mom...spent a longass time in hot topic trying to decide if i should get a shirt or not. at first i really wanted the green ninja turtles shirt but 1. it was too big and 2. it was 18.99. then i wondered if i should get a thursday shirt...it was a bit cheaper...but nope. got some pins for sue and beeny and such. that reminds me...my mom is really weird.

mom: look if you had the party room you could invite all your friends. like beeny and cecil...
me: cecil? who's cecil?
mom: the sea sick sea serpent!
me: whaaaa?
mom: cecil, the sea sick sea serpent! (for a while i thought she was saying C6Ccer-pant)
me: uh....okay...
mom: you know beeny is the little blonde boy with the hat with the spinny thing on it. that's probably who beeny's parents named her after...
me:...that's not her real name you know--you watched some weird tv shows when you were young mom
mom: come on everybody watched beeny and cecil.

sorry i thought that was amusing. heh. anyway then we finally saw the pirate show...it was so LAME. i would call the entire hotel gay, but that would be an insult to homosexual people. it was just LAME. the pirate show used to be the coolest free show in vegas! it was the pirates against the british people and they would have a big fight with cannons and fire...and finally the british would lose and their ship would sink! well now it's the "sirens of TI" against the male pirates and there's singing and dancing...and it's so fruity. the songs are so shitty too. i mean it's like avril lavigne---NO! Hillary Duff's writers wrote these songs.

i think one went "you take a little bit of honey and a whole lot of sugar and you mix it. mix it up. if you want a house and farm i'll give you rum" something stupid like that.

another one went "hey you come our way i KNOW YOU want to stay OOOOHHHHHAAAA"...it was so awful i had to leave. on the way home i did my own renditions of the song.."doo doo i like flambe if seagulls flew over the bay they'd be BAGELLLLLLLLS!"
i like my version better...so did my mom who was cracking up.

anyway then thursday christmas...pretty awesome. woke up, breakfast buffet, then went bowling! my dad won both games...he didn't do very well though. he blamed it on the shoes and not having his own ball. hehe i did get a strike though. then my mom and i went to the Forum shops at Caesar's Palace and FAO Schwartz (crap how is that spelled?) was having a sale so my mom bought me mancala. bah! she lost one of the pieces already! (my dad:" just replace it with a penny!" ghetto.) and then we saw RETURN OF THE KING! ...I didn't cry...i don't cry at movies...okay just Donnie Darko (Jake Gyllenhaal nooo!!) and i almost cried during AI (I know he's a robot but don't leave him in the forest alone! augh!) so my eyes kinda teared up at some parts. but it was very good hooray! the lady next to me kept coughing.

today...went to my uncle's and had fun with my cousins. hehe Tad's new phrase is "aw man!" holy crap he got a drumset! and he's only 5! man i wish someone had gotten me a drum set when i was 5. then again his dad's a doctor. heh. my parents got Kimi a tape recorder/cd player/microphone machine so they had fun throwing insults at each other through the mic. "you have a big butt!" "you have an ugly butt!" "well...you're a butt!" uhmm yeah. anyway so that was fun and now i'm home.

I WANT TO SEE TAKING BACK SUNDAY DAMMIT. is that too much to ask? jeeze man first i'm gypped out of thursday (even though it was halloween...still...i'm not gonna get over that for a while) and now taking back sunday and a bunch of other great bands? BAH! bah i say.




Sunday, December 21, 2003


vegas tomorrow...hmm i expect i'll be doing homework. lots of homework.


i dreamt i went to oakgrove...i didn't like it much...everyone was mean to me

then i dreamt i went to a varsity soccer game...venice was winning in the first half 12-0 and alex scored a goal

and THEN i dreamt i was at a concert...some weird emo band.


Friday, December 19, 2003


oh and chry's card was awesome in my pants and made me laugh:

"the true-th...for you my dear friend...jen...

On this day, (almost) about 2000 years ago, something quite terrible indeed did occur...

The world went crazy and called some stupid kid Jesus, making the entire world more stupid...and pointless...and illogical...

And so, on this day, we celebrate Christmas...and give each other shit in honor of that stupid kid, who, obviously wasn't very well liked cause he got pinned up on a piece of wood...

And we sing stupid songs about this crack-baby, and his 'shroom-eating mother, who swears she was a dude with wings, (and also swore she was a virgin...psh...) and how the 3 crack heads from some far away town came and gave them all incense and perfume (to cover up the stench of pot. booze, and pig shit)

So let's all sing and dance...and celebrate Christmas the way it should be...

Drunk, high, and covered in pig shit.... YAY!"

hehe it's so sacrilegious i love it!


So today was okay...got bored during the english test so i half assed my second essay...hehe Kimberly did the same thing. I just couldn't take it anymore.

the AP Art test was awful...okay when Mimi (Shi Cong) admits that she knows NOTHING then there's a problem. everyone was generally clueless on the test so we'll see what the grades are this time. I bet Caroline still managed an A.

anyway i got truly AWESOME shit today from people.

from kim i got...a smurf figure (first of all papa smurf didn't great smurfette gargamel did...), a drip candle (coolest thing ever...i have to find a wine bottle to put it in or something since my parents don't drink...i'm a pyro maniac, maniac...), two jhonen vasquez-esque comics (SQUEE!)(what size will my boobs be? m....e....o....w), and spongebob playing cards!

from chry i got awesome toe socks (adding to my collection) and a shirt that says i love jesus. lol

from ryan i got a rudolf beach ball (amused us greatly during ap art history)

and from isaac i got a yo yo.

hurray!

i did okay on the math test...dunno about chem.

jeebus i'm glad it's christmas break.


oh yeah and my math book was in my asian studies class.


Saturday, January 10th
2PM
Tower Sunset Los Angeles
8801 Sunset Blvd.
West Hollywood, CA 90069
310.657.3910
IMPORTANT INFORMATION for TOWER SUNSET EVENT: This is a special outdoor parking lot concert with Phantom Planet! Come down to Tower Records on Sunset beginning on Tuesday January 6th and purchase the new cd from PP. When you do, you will receive a wristband that guarantees you admittance into this special show. Wristbands are issued on a first come first serve basis and may run out prior to actual event. Check back to this space for updates as the date approaches


Thursday, December 18, 2003


i can't find my math book.


i am so fucked.


i'm so fucking sick of studying for these 4 tests. kill me now please!!

thank jeebus i read chry's blog otherwise i would've completely forgotten about style cards.

7 chapters?! nooooooo.

fuck you Huck Finn. and fuck Tom too.

fuck you stupid light energy laws.

i forgot one...oh yeah and fuck you law of sines...and the law of cosines can go suck a fuck

okay i'm done.


Wednesday, December 17, 2003


i am trying SO hard not to get my hopes up...my dad keeps trying to crush em and he's only half succeeding.


holy shit. friday i have 4 tests in a row, then nothing, then a party.

holy shit.


hi. my name is jen and i don't study for chem essays.

i DID study for english though. well "study" means go onto sparknotes.com and copying down any shit i think might be useful on the test tomorrow. and we get two days. sweet.


today was an amusing day

in the morning rick made chry, kim, and i move these huge white boards into his car. Chry and i were like "ahh! it's so heavy" and kim goes "what are you talking about?" and lifts hers. sorry for being weak children. haha. anyway then i knocked a bulletin board off the wall...because i'm so smooth like that. then we walked the rest of the way to school.

so we get into english class and Ms. Kim sees that Bianca gave Mike a Clay Aiken CD for Christmas. So she goes "I love that song!" and then proceeds to play the CD for us, much to our dismay. now i can handle that one song of his but i can't take much more than that. especially when i'm trying to concentrate on a vocabulary quiz. so basically the entire class started complaining about Clay and his pop star crooning. finally when Sara snapped "i just lost the word i was thinking of because of that dumb song!" Ms. Kim turned it off. Then Greg had an interesting suggestion: what if every day someone brings in their favorite cd and we play it during the class? everyone thought this was a fantastic idea but Ms. Kim said it had to meet her approval. None of this "Rancid" crap. (me: hey i like Rancid!). anyway so i wouldn't bring in the aquabats like many would think, i would bring the offspring...more of a crowd pleaser. the only thing is...our tastes are so diverse. i mean i'm not sure i would relish an entire class of "gangstar" or whatever hugo's favorite band is. i do know that i would like whatever kimberly brought! hehe. yeah and bianca would just bring nsync so i don't think that would work.

then during 2nd we didn't do much...we were supposed to be studying for our test friday but...yeah...wasn't happening. man i hope arlette won her game today because she said reuben threatened making them run for 2 hours if they lost. that sucks!

3rd we watched what Aaron calls "the best chemistry video ever" which is where they put different chemicals in a glass bowl of water. They kept exploding more and more until boom! Cesium broke the bowl of water! that was sweet. oh yeah and then Mr. Erdman kept making comments about my new action figure/lego things that bianca gave to me for christmas. they're so cool! they're austin powers, dr. evil, and mini me! and austin even comes with a gun! everyone thought they were so awesome. then Mr. Erdman decided to scare Christine with a mole. good times.

hehe lunch we gave belinda her card and present...i think she liked the card better than the present! it was her face pasted on Viggo Mortensen's and Orlando Bloom was kissing her! she was jumping up and down she was so excited. Then we started playing with touchable bubbles (they don't pop easily)

Bianca: hey Belinda they're non toxic!
Belinda: does that mean i can eat em?!
Bianca: it says here they don't taste good

of course that didn't matter...Belinda and Hanaka each had to taste the bubbles. they said they didn't taste good. oh ew then Belinda put a bunch of the stuff on a cookie! that was gross. Laura and i were disturbed.

then spanish we had fun! we saw that the worksheet we were supposed to do we had already done so we invented a new game called "pie." (the name has nothing to do with the game). it consisted of throwing Bianca's magnets against Ms. Quitegui's filing cabinet. i think it amused us for a full half an hour or so.

Karim: aren't you guys bored YET?

so then we decided to play that game where you make a sentence adding one word at a time....and then Karim let us play with his picture frame where you can record stuff. hehe good times.

then the bus ride home was fun...Maxwell told Sami and I (i think he had already told sami) why he hates this kid that rides our bus. lol!
Kid to maxwell: you wouldn't like that book. you're not intelligent
maxwell:...i have a 4.2 GPA
kid: no you don't!

i was like what the fuck?! and the amazing thing is the kid is no jonah himself! it's crazy.

so then i went to tae kwon do and E.J. (this older guy) and i were the only ones there. it was a good class because it was very one-on-one but it was also really hard. and it was much easier to see just how shitty my side and back kicks are. i think they're better now because we spent so much damn time on them today.

then i tried vegan cookies again and i think they turned out much much better this time. so i think i shall be bringing them in for the children.

and now i have to study for chem.


Tuesday, December 16, 2003


oh yeah and i gave rice krispies treats to claudia who's leaving today! or tomorrow. anyway she's leaving! bitch. well not really she had to take the chem test today.

i'm finally starting to get the fucking monday quizzes...who knows a 15 might be in store for me next.

*mr. erdman comments as he throws back our monday quizzes*
erd: and SOMEONE thought they could put Barium and Chloride together!
me: oh man....*i slam the quiz down on my desk then take a peek at it* but i still managed to get an 11 (out of 12)! HAH!

and now for some quotes:

Christina: Mr. Erdman were you a weirdo in highschool?
Erd: no dear, in my day we had the jocks and the greasers.
Max: oh yeah!
Erd: i was a jock
Christina: what did you play?!
Erd: football
Christine: varsity?!
Erd: yup. we won 2 games one year...

Erd. It's like Fluorine is addicted. Please! give me a hit! Look i've got kilojoules i need electrons!
*probably only amusing if you were in the class at that time*

Shauna: *babbles about something or other*
Kim: *makes a digging motion*

i still don't really know what that one means kim. was she digging herself deeper into a hole or just shoveling crap? well whatever it was hilarious.

Kraft: this was in the last samurai...last samurai...that was in the last samurai too...
Mimi: how much are they paying you to advertise?

Erd: the only major fires we had here were with this chemical
Zeb: haha! you suck!

Erdman: maybe Mr. Siegel taught you guys about this last year...
Zeb: I didn't teach them anything!

Erdman: make sure you call it "be-yoot ah-nal" not "butt anal".

Erdman: be careful if your "a's" look like "o's"
me: Haha Aaron!
*flashback*
Aaron: 90% of my a's look like o's
me: Aoron?haha!
Aaron: i hate you.
Kim: what about me?
Aaron: I hate you too.

me: why are you in AP statistics while Alex had to re-take trig?
Bianca: because Alex's mom didn't like her D. My mom failed trig so she said "you got a D? fabulous!"
me: haha!
Bianca: my dad was like "...you're in trigonometry?!"
me: haha
Bianca: i said "didn't you take trig, dad?" he said "yeah i took trigonometry...of the ocean!"
me: haha what?
Bianca: he always says stupid stuff like that because he used to ditch all the time. one time he said "yeah i took english" and i said "where? in your back yard?"

*Zeb hugs Aaron*
Aaron: what was that?! (to mr. erdman) did you see that?!
Mr.Erdman: that's sexual harassment, you know.


so funny!
click damn you!

yeah so i got a live journal

dunno if i'll update it ever. yeah it's all thursday'd out and i don't care what you think. i might fix it up later if i ever get motivated enough to care.

anyway so i gave out a few presents today...gave a canadian moose and happy bunny socks to chry...a poster and a light up fairly oddparents wand to bianca...and trick golf balls to maia! lol i want to be around when she uses those things.

then i attempted cookies again...2nd time's a charm? we'll see.

oh yeah the rice krispies things are pretty good but REALLY good warm with melted chocolate...mmm yeah.

okay so that's all...bianca and i made belinda the coolest card ever!


Monday, December 15, 2003


kim and i have the worst memories EVER. it took us forever to remember what we got each other for christmas last year!

lol i couldn't remember what i got her for her birthday either. and that was two months ago! sad, really.


the cookies didn't turn out so well but the rice krispies treats did.

i'll try again tomorrow.

how the fuck does arlette go to bed at 9:00 every night?

that whore.

frankie had some good quotes today. "Punch him! in the FACE!" hehe. and then about being easy...good times.


Sunday, December 14, 2003


so i figure hey i should do my chem outline as it's due soon.


then i say "nah" and go back to listening to music.


want another thursday song? okay!

Standing on the edge of the palisades cliffs
In the shadow of the skyline very far away
A lightning rod that couldn’t pull the storm from me
I was 5 years old my best friends older brother died
He fell from these cliffs
The river washed him away the current pulled him downstream
In our eyes, floating in the headlights, so we parked these cars
Parent’s garage
Listen to the lullaby
Of Carbon Monoxide

War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
The sun doesn’t rise
We replaced it with an h-bomb explosion
A painted jail cell of blood in the sky like Three Mile Island
Nightmares on TV they used to sing us to sleep
They burn on and on like an oil field
Or a memory of what it felt like
To burn on and on and not just fade away
All those nights in the basement the kids are still screaming
On and on and on and on

War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
And we’re blowing in the wind
We don’t know where to land
So we kiss like little kids
We used to be very tall buildings
We’ve been falling for so long
Now your eyes follow the sign on the edge of town
They offer a welcome when you are leaving

War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
The pieces fall it’s like a last day parade
And the fires in our streets start to rage,
so wave, to the people that long to wave back,
from the fabric of a flag that sang "love all of the time"

War all the time War all the time
All of the time
War all the time
War all the time
All of the time
All of the time
War all of the time
War all of the time
War all of the time
War all of the time


attempted vegan cookies today...i fucked up though...god dammit why do tablespoons and teaspoons look so much alike? anyway i tried to fix it...i'll try baking them tomorrow. the dough tastes so good though! i think i made myself sick by eating too much of it...mmm so good though! well if it turns out shitty i'll just make a new batch. i'm hoping to get someone (like lorenzo or zeb or some big meat eater) to give one to mr. erdman...if he says they're good then i'll break it to him that they're vegan! muahahahah! anyway they have to come out good today.

wrapped presents....i'm not sure if i'm bringing them all on friday or whatnot because bianca's is annoyingly large....and kim's. everyone else's is nice and small...because i'm poor. lol. anyway uhmmm yeah...i said i was gonna order stuff for people and then i forgot so you probably won't get it till next semester or something ridiculous. haha. yeah.


steps ascend to a loaded gun.
the scent of matches hangs in the air
(a lit one flickers out in a hearbeat).
we don't want to see this:
a flash of light that's letting go of an empty bullet case,
by the time it hits the ground, he's out of reach.
let go. the wolves are closing in.
there's no room left to make amends.
do you remember when we'd fly that kite so high?
all the time we've wasted, spent fighting,
will burn in the fire of our regrets all the time we've wasted,
spent fighting, it's blood and it's running down the stairs.
freeze the frame between the gun shot and the hole it makes.
a spinning bullet waits in the middle.
there's no way to stop it, it will surely hit the mark.
you can try to understand but I'm giving up.
the synapse fires, it's right in time.
I'm giving up.
this should always stay out of reach
I ran down the stairs and into the garden,
put both my hands into the soil.
in the spring, you will bloom, like her heart, through the blouse,
in the back of the ambulance, as it turned and turned in the streets
(just one more turn won't you come back to me)
as it turned on its red lights,
you were turning into red roses but I'm not giving up.


all the time....wasted! spent...fighting! ahhh great song.


interesting how I rushed out to buy the Offspring's new CD but I've been listening to Thursday more...I'm slowly becoming obsessed. Now I want Five Stories Falling...I think that's what their earlier CD was called.

and wheeeeeeeee.


Saturday, December 13, 2003


at first i was like "asleep in the chapel?" what the fuck is this religious? but then i actually listened to the song...oh yeah.

i bought a bag of chips today at ucla and two bags came out. muahaha. i didn't even like the chips. 37 cents for a bag of chips...not bad. well 37.5 actually. heh.


three chalk outlines sleep in the dirty street and in our beds,
under the sheets, they're the halo of guilt hanging around your neck,
next to the rosary you count,
falling asleep and we're praying to treat the symptoms of letting go of all our hope.
since we can't compete with martyred saints,
we'll douse ourselves in gasoline and hang our bodies from the lampposts
so that our shadows turn into bright lights
'white light, white heat' we'll make as we're blacking out in the center lane,
we swerve to the beat, spill all the ink
No revisions
Do you hear the church bells ringing?
wake up!!
wake up in an outline and try to speak with the shattered voice of the lives we lead...
have we slept too long between the bullet holes in a stained-glass window state?
when we repent, we fall on the page (read, in the margins)
we are the symptoms of letting go of all our hope.
someday we'll be complete like modern saints,
baptize our kids in gasoline and hang our doubts up in cathedrals
so that they turn to faith in the colored sunlight.
'red rain, red rain' we'll make as we're blacking out in the center lane...
do you hear the church bells ringing?
they ring for you.
we woke up this morning to a street filled with a thousand burning crosses
and what we thought was the sunrise, just passing headlights still the choir girls sing,
'oh lord, can you save us?
oh lord, sing hallelujah' they are the symptoms of letting go of all our hope...
we're falling asleep with open eyes falling asleep inside the chapel
falling asleep in chalk outlines falling asleep as the headlights pass us by...


i wrote this yesterday but blogger was down or something stupid. anyway...

figures that the first football game i actually watch we LOSE. ARRRGH! we lost the championship to Carson! MEHHHH! this is their 11th win. fuck you carson! it's so ironic that Beau, our new quarterback played for Carson last year..

*after a bad pass*
Tori: BEAU! did you forget who you're playing for?!

Cami: who's kicking?
Ashley: asshole.
Cami: oh, okay

Cami: who just tackled that guy?
Ashley: man boobs
Cami: wooo! go man boobs!
Ashley: MOOBS!!!

Cami: *watching the mentally disabled kids frolic on the field* it's times like this that i wish i was retarded.

Alex Miller: *over the speakers* Tonight's game is brought to you by Wilsons, proud makers of tennis balls, volley balls...
Ashley: yeah Alex Miller likes balls

Ashley: who are all those seats for? invisible people? sure are a lot of 'em

*the cheerleaders hold a banner that says "get UM"*
Ashley: get UM?! what the fuck?! it's EM. with an apostrophe!
Tori: god our cheerleaders are stupid

Bianca: i can't watch anymore *covers face*

Ashley: if i was Beau i wouldn't come to school for oh...three months ? four?

after the third quarter i pulled out Thursday and listened to that for the remainder of the game. It fit well with the way things were going, and it was amusing to watch the cheerleaders cheer to "Asleep in the Chapel" which, by the way, is an amazing song. I also really like "Steps Ascending". That song is sad...well, granted, it's emo but more so because it's about how Geoff got into a fight with a friend and didn't talk to him ever again...then his friend was shot to death. :-(.

anyway there were loads more funny quotes from Ashley, Cami, Tori, and Bianca, which made the game bearable.

The halftime show was embarrassing. except for the steps team. they were awesome...at first i said i couldn't believe that anyone's field show (carson's) could be worse than ours...but then i saw ours and retracted my statement. i'll have to talk to sammy about this.

anyway so that was my night. disappointing, but still fun.


today i went to the ucla thing instead of tae kwon do...oh well we got to be in erdman's class this time which was MUCH better than that other boring man.

Erdman: nobody wants to hold hands with stumpy!
Christine: that's horrible!

Claudia: mmm cloud of pie...

Erdman: you know how you take the kid to grandma's for thanksgiving and they get bored so they find the chair with one short leg and they annoyingly rock back and forth the entire time? how do you stop a kid from doing that?
Claudia: hit em?
me: hit em?!
Claudia: whoops...did i just say that?

Erdman: so one bond would be like you have one arm around your significant other. two bonds is even better! you can keep them even closer. three bonds...i'm not gonna get into three bonds.

and then my mom and dad took me to native foods! yay! no i did not see john feldmann there.


ugh i really really want to go to san diego for new years but i have a feeling that's not going to happen...well maia seems really into it so maybe...

la la la la la listen to the sound go on and on as if you spoke to someone else


Thursday, December 11, 2003


law in California: It is a misdemeanor to shoot at any kind of game from a moving vehicle, unless the target is a whale.

that made me laugh out loud.

Florida:

If an elephant is left tied to a parking meter, the parking fee has to be paid just as it would for a vehicle.
It is illegal to sing in a public place while attired in a swimsuit.
Men may not be seen publicly in any kind of strapless gown.
Having sexual relations with a porcupine is illegal.

Kansas:
Prohibits shooting rabbits from a motorboat.

that one made me laugh too

makes you wonder why these laws were written in the first place...


stupid tests..blah

*lady in tortilla soup*: do you know why people clink glasses? (she proceeds to explain why)
Bianca: that's a great pickup line! I'm going to write it down!

i don't want to study anymore.

Ms. Kim: Ms. Carniero
Bianca:...does that mean you think my name is pretty or you want me to go up there?

*the room is quiet*
Bianca: doo de doo

Kraft: here's a picture of the house (she just bought a new house)
Maria: it's already got furniture in it!
Kraft:...yeah...that's the previous owner's furniture.

Kraft: how do you pronounce it?
Caroline: Borobudor
Kraft: Borobudu i can't do it! can you assign me some tongue exercises or --
*Kim bursts into laughter*
*everyone stares at kim*
Kraft: you okay there kim?
Kim: Everyone is staring at me!
me: kim, you're bright red!

Kraft: you're not going to be able to concentrate on China
Kenay: I can never concentrate on China. They're a bunch of commies.

Erdman: that's like if i hold a gun to your head, flip a coin and ask you "heads or tails?" you say "yep" and i kill you because you pissed me off

Erdman: remember finger painting? you put a bright red glop in the middle of the paper...
Zeb:...then you eat it!
Erdman:...that explains a lot

Erdman: then you get the toxic kind and kill off your kids

me: I eat babies.
Christine: real babies?!
me: yep
Christine:...you're freaking me out, Jen.
me: haha i scare people.


Wednesday, December 10, 2003


Lights out on Division St.
and all the hate that rises through the cracks in the pavement,
as the temperature falls.
(giving it's way through the cracks)
Lights out on Division St.
i'll repeat it.
Goodbye to the memories,
(the memory will not fade)
the night has worn down,
it's not enough to put this sound,
i'll part up before i wake up.
(on Division St.)
This is serious,
This is serious,
Yes, this is serious..
I'm having a heart attack parade.
Lights out on Division St.
I held you tight like an empty bottle...
but the glass broke and the pieces fell down in your name.
Hello?
Hello?
Is anybody there?
the house turned black,
it sat in silence.
(no idea what's being said)
la la la, listen to the sound.
go on and on,
as if you spoke to someone else.
Lights out on Division St.
i'll repeat it.
Goodbye to the memories,
(the memory will not fade)
the night has worn down,
it's not enough to put this sound,
i'll part up before i wake up.
(on Division St.)
This is serious,
This is serious,
Yes, this is serious.
I'm having a heart attack parade.
dance between the scissor's blades
without getting caught
I drew an X on your city's name
LIGHTS OUT. BLACK OUT. BLOW OUT THE CANDLE AGAIN.
spin the room around
FALL DOWN. PASS OUT. GET UP AGAIN. KEEP REPEATING.
between the footsteps I hear crickets in the trees
a silent army marching with me through a swarm of bees
a needle dragged across a record slowing down
along Division St. the lights were dying out
(frozen houses stretched on for miles and miles)
TURN THE WINDOWS BLACK
lights out on division street
repeating (repeat it)
lights out on division street
repeating, (turn the windows black)
lights out. lights out. lights out.
turn the windows black
la la la la la la
listen to yourself.


i've been at the-n message boards because i enjoy torturing children...don't judge! haha

tae kwon do was so fun today! and painful! well first of all i officially became a yellow belt today...yay! and i got an "outstanding" patch to put on my uniform because i pimped my test last week. oh god that sounded like kenya. lol let me rephrase that...because i did well on my test last week. haha kenya's cool though. anyway so then we did a crapload of kicking and painful stretching...haha edward is so funny! he has my maturity level but he's so much older..

*someone farts*
*we all try to hold in our laughter*
edward: okay who was that?
*we start giggling*
edward: who farted?!

and then he was making funny faces while he was stretching. cheyenne is really flexible...but i suppose that comes with teaching pilates. i can't wait to learn some new techniques! do de do i dunno if i'm gonna go on saturday because there might be an ap study thing...but stupid mr. governator might have done away with that whole program.

math sucks.

blah i should study because i have nothing better to do...i don't wannaaaaa...:-(.

okay that's all.

i've become such a pyro lately...


muahaha! i told maia to listen to "timberwolves at new jersey" and now she really likes taking back sunday! hehe she had only listened to "great romances of the 20th century" before and she hadn't liked them much. "timberwolves at new jersey" is what made me like taking back sunday too :-).

these people from austrailia came to play music for us today. wow! they were really good! haha Bianca kept going "i LOVE Austrailians!!!" hehe yeah there were some hot ones.

free soymilk today...that was pretty awesome.

did well on my chem quiz...ah yeah i needed that.

i'm gonna order some christmas stuff for people today so they won't be getting it for a while...hehe.


Tuesday, December 09, 2003


walked to best buy today. i got splinter for 9.99 go me. i had a tough time deciding what other cd to pick...i had a bunch in my hands including radiohead, rancid, catch 22, dropkick murphys, and hoobastank before i finally narrowed it down to blink 182 or thursday. although blink was cheaper i like thursday better than blink. so that's what i'm listening to right now. signals over the air is such a good song! mmm and i like almost all the songs on the new offspring cd. do de do...dexter looks unsexy in the da hui video...maybe it's the old age...haha.

we played with fire today in chem...fun times. copper sulfate burns prettily.

haha i kept making comments during the movie in spanish so karim told me to shut up. hahahha. i couldn't help it! what's her face was so stupid. and that other guy was stupid too.

this is what you see when you look in my direction, incandescent corsets draw eyes tight like wires. this is how it feels, calling out but no one even hears the signals that we send over the air. when you say my name, i want to split it from your lips and hide like whispers in the rain. when you say my name, i want to stop it in your lungs and collect all of you blood to put in the radio. is this how it feels when you don't even fit into your own skin? and it's getting tighter, every day i'm getting smaller. if i keep holding my breath i'm going to dissapear. there's nowhere to hide. they stole the love from our lives to put the sex on the radio. if i keep holding my breath, all of this will fade away. if you keep driving we'll be lying in the wreck, changing the shape, folding like an envelope to keep each other in. shattered glass, broken looks and mascara gets washed away by windshield wiper blades. that's where we hide the love and lies and sex, on the radio.


Monday, December 08, 2003


my god i'm lazy.


oh yeah! beeny maia seemed interested in soma...and she might get her license soon...shh of course going to san diego on new year's is school related...


i feel....meh. could be happier but not sad.

hmmm interesting how some people feel the same way that i do...they probably don't care.

this song is only wishful thinking.
just so long as this thing's loaded
those words at best were worse than teenage poetry.

Hope is the thing I’m feeling today.
Walking a mile out of the way,
I still might make it through.
Turn on your street and see a car.
One where I thought mine should be parked.
Finding our home a house of pain.
See in an instant things can change, and never feel the same.
Turn on your street and see a car.
One where I thought mine should be parked.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s what I’ll deliver.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s just what I’ll give you.
Trenches dug out the side of the road.
Remember the smell of earth in piles.
And there was nothing else to do but walk for miles, so I walked for miles.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s what I’ll deliver.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s just what I’ll give you.
Turn on your street and see a car.
Someone I thought was a friend to me has ripped a hole in my life.
Someone I thought was a friend to me has gone and married my wife.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s what I’ll deliver.
If that’s what you demand, then that’s just what I’ll give you.
If that’s your master plan, then I wish you two the best together.



it's amusing that he calls his girlfriend a dumb donut.

Spare Me The Details

My girlfriend, my dumb donut
Went out to a party just the other night
But three hours later, and seven shots of Jager
She was in the bedroom with another guy

And I don't really want to know
So don't tell me anymore
And I really don't want to hear
About her feet all up in the air

I'm not the one who acted like a ho
Why must I be the one who has to know
I'm not the one who messed up big time
So spare me the details if you don't mind

Now I can understand
Friends who want to tell me
Think they're gonna help me open up my eyes
But the play-by-play
Makes me want to lose it
Every time you do it man it turns the knife

Now I don't need to hear
About the sounds they were making
And I don't need to hear
About how long it was taking
Or how the walls they were shaking

Now lying in bed, wallowing in sorrow
Missing the tomorrow that we could have had
Running through my head, over and over
Things I never told her now just make me sad

And it drives me insane
Sitting with the vision
Stuck with that image burned into my brain
And I feel so dumb
That I could ever trust her
While someone else fucked her
Then walked away


jeebus i'm so clumsy. i should stop leaving stuff on my computer desk because i knock it over and i can never find it again. haha i've already broken two beakers in chem. at the mall i kept knocking down stuff...well beeny knocked down some shit too but i knocked down the majority of it...i think the best one is when i knocked over something at icing and it took down 5 other things with it. yeah i'm smooth. real smooth. like a criminal.


The new Offspring album "Splinter" out tomorrow!

yes i will be buying it. hahah i'm obsessed. probably along with "War All The Time" or maybe the new Hoobastank CD or the new Blink CD. whatever i decide on...i'll probably end up spending an hour at best buy trying to pick one. hehe.

taekwondo was pretty fun today...we got to use weapons...and yeah!


The new Offspring album "Splinter" out tomorrow!

yes i will be buying it. hahah i'm obsessed. probably along with "War All The Time" or maybe the new Hoobastank CD or the new Blink CD. whatever i decide on...i'll probably end up spending an hour at best buy trying to pick one. hehe.


Sunday, December 07, 2003


hehe yesterday and today were fun. first i went to the advanced belt testing which was really interesting to watch. the black belt candidates had to do soooo many routine/technique thingies. oh man. they had to do knife ones and gun ones...those were so awesome to watch but my dad goes "yeah right like you do that if the guy had a gun" i felt bad for some of the kids though...they couldn't remember stuff. the two kids that helped teach my class a few times, michael and karen did really well.

then i went to the mall with beeny and we were there for a while shopping and crap. oh man that dog was so funny! and the giant singing homer was awesome. i actually got some holiday shopping done hehe..i'm such an impulse buyer. anyway so then we wen't back to beeny's and yael came over to make vegan cookies. which was actually just one giant vegan cookie

(as i stir the oil and sugar)
Yael: that looks like lemonade. i'm thirsty now. can i taste it?
me: ...it's oil and sugar. i don't think you want to taste it.
*later*
Yael: that looks really good! can i try some?
me: you're not going to want to taste it anymore after i let you have some..

anyway so then we didn't have chocolate chips so we just used broken bits of chocolate bars which wasn't the greatest idea...hahah they were sooooo sweet. and then we put frosting and sprinkles on it! so much sugar haha. we didn't get all hyper though...for some reason. so then we just sat around talking and watching shows...and screwing with yael while she was half asleep. hehe that was fun!

how could you say that hugh jackman has no talent and is just a pretty face?! lol just kidding...anyway yeah we watched spongebob...and invader zim...twas grand. then i fell asleep in a chair which was interesting...watched more nicktoons...then i went home. then my dad and i went to the latin american museum of art so i can get extra credit for art history. yay! my dad liked the exhibit. i've already seen it before so i wasn't too interested.

uhmmm then i did some homework and watched degrassi! yay! liek omg manny wuz nawt wering underwerz yo.

yeah i should study for art history...i'm having trouble concentrating though...blah.

i said i was the cops and your husband's in jail the state looks down on sodomy


Friday, December 05, 2003


THE gwenanobi: so a llama and a penguin mate....
Warlain58: and, and!?
Warlain58: the penguin splooged too soon and offended the undersexed llama?
THE gwenanobi: lol sure


who just passed her yellow belt test?! ME! yayyyy!! i'm so happy!!

the test was pretty hard...i had to remember everything i've learned since i first got there about a month ago. then i had to do some new stuff i've never heard of...

Mr. Abrigo: okay jumping front kick let's go
me: uhhh sir i never learned how to do that
Mr. Abrigo: just try your best
me:....yes sir!

lol so i had to pretend i knew how to do that...and a forward roll but that was fun.

so then after the test was over (it was about an hour and a half long) he talked to each of us about how we were doing and what he thought we should work on and he just told me i did a good job especially considering the amount of time i'd had in the class. so yay! :-). i didn't get my yellow belt yet but i guess i get it next class or something...don't remember.

man i watched Cheyenne, one of my classmates, test for purple belt and it looked so hard! she had to know about 15 techniques and i only had to know 5. haha. she's a pilates teacher haha i never knew that.

ooh and then i watched the little orange belts test...they were SO cute! they had to break boards...the other guy testing with Cheyenne and I, Edward, had to break two boards with his fist

anyway so tomorrow i'm going to go watch the upper belts test along with the black belts and there's a party tomorrow or something.

then i might go holiday shopping with peoples.

hurrah!

i'm in a good mood. :-) nice considering how shitty this week has been...


didn't really do much today...saw some interesting pictures in art history today hahaha...had an interesting conversation with mike in asian studies...and we started watching tortilla soup in spanish. it's good but their voices are all kinda annoying.

Bianca uses preparation H! haha well...she did...for undereye circles. didn't work she says.


Kim: if you rub your nose really hard it makes a noise! like "doo doo doo doo doo"

Kraft: if the pages are your book are stuck together...
everyone: eeewwww

Kraft: why doesn't my mouth work right?
Kenya: i'm sure her husband says that all the time

Gene: when i run my butt hurts

me: (to Chris Eastman) it's you!
Chris: what are you talking about? you're drunk! *to Aaron* you know, she's drunk.
Aaron: that explains a lot.

lots of drama going on....yep....i'm going to start trying harder in my classes or something because recently it's been shitty...yeah...

test! soon!


Thursday, December 04, 2003


shitty shitty math test....yeah i felt really stupid today...

Ms. Kraft: I'm not a pervert...okay maybe i am...

Ms. Kraft: *talks about tantric sex* i totally got your attention today it's fabulous. Yes you victor.

Kraft: Shiva takes the form of a phallus sometimes...like a large collumn...there are all these erections around, literally.

Greg: Why is Shiva always standing on a baby?
Kraft: Okay that's the dwarf of ignorance.

Kraft: Shiva is Lord of the Dance
me: Michael Flatley?
Kim: River Dance?
Kenya: Irish man?

Kraft: they would carry the image around, bath it, give it food etc...
me: that's devotion
Kim: that's like you and the egg from health class

Kraft: Samsara or rebirth
me: Samara!
Kim: *tips her head forward and puts her hair in her face*

Erd: It's sad my diploma was signed by Ronald Reagan
Lorenzo: is it really his signature?
Erd: i'm not sure he knows how to write

Erd: you would know about cows, right?
Zeb Siegel: huh?
Erd: cross country
Zeb: oh yeah i hate the valley. too many cows.
Erd: better cows than SEAGULLS!

Erd: Hund's rule. Hund means dog in German. Wouldn't it be terrible to go through life with your last name Hund?
Zeb: kinda like SIEGEL!

Belinda: (to the door) hey! there are people walking here!
Bianca: oh i thought you were gonna be like "ey! eyyyy!" like the crabs in finding Nemo
Belinda: i like crabs.
me: you like crabs eh? i know a guy who can give you some.
Bianca: for free!
Belinda: eww not that kind!

Bianca: today one day of Hanukkah falls on Christmas
me: today?
Bianca: ahaha i meants in december!
Belinda: today is Christmas? Merry Christmas Charlie Brown!

me: can you come play...March? (Martes)
Belinda: why do you keep saying March?
Belinda y Bianca: It's tuesday
me: ohhhh haha what's March?
Belinda y Bianca: Marzo

me: wow Hanaka is only turning 16?
Mike: yeah she's one of those November babies
me:...it's december

me: if Chrystine is anorexic, what am i?
Bianca: Bulemerexic?
me:no...dead!
Belinda: HAHAHHAA deaf?!
me: no DEAD
Belinda: Bulemerexic who?

little girl on the bus with a high pitched voice: oh my gawd! you should have your eyeballs ripped out and...forced in your mouth!

lol i started cracking up when i heard that one. it was this little girl and she was talking about ripping out eyeballs. haha what has become of today's youth?

bread and breakfast.

lalala test tomorrow i should study.


i sorta kinda like that Good Charlotte song "Hold On"....it's sad....no I'm still not a Good Charlotte fan..."Girls don't like boys girls like cars and money" uhmmm yeah great message there.

the part in the music videos where the people were talking about who they lost was so sad!

and will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head?


Wednesday, December 03, 2003


Beeny and I better get to go to TBS on New Year's (not to mention me first and the gimme gimmes, sugarcult, yellowcard and MAYBE blink (please please?) ) even if we have to take the fucking greyhound bus (fuck you!)

nix on hoobastank...it's a monday. fuck you jimmy kimmel live.


Blood Light Presents....

Today we salute you mr. prissay always wanted to be an actor but didn't quite have the guts so i went to law school mr. hollywood studio lawyer
mr. whatever he just said
throw the book at a liquor store stick up guy? prosecute a few crack dealers? uh-uh mister because real men protect those who really are needy- the hollywood film studios.
gonna get a pound of flesh, yeah
you work countless hours preventing halloween events from celebrating your third rate film characters-characters that you save for what really counts
what is that?
making crappy, formulaic slasher films
going straight on video
how dare a local theme park use your cardboard serial killer whose last home video release was on beta
i remember beta
so crack open an ice cold blood light o' pussified prosecutor, but be careful because if you bend over you're gonna find out the true meaning of "the long arm of the law"
mr. high powered hollywood lawyer

BLOOD LIGHT BEER
ANHOWSYOURBUSCH
BUENA PARK, CALIFORNIA


BLOOD LIGHT PRESENTS.........

Today we salute you Mr. 3-D Maze Glasses Salesman
(mr. 3-d maze glasses salesman)
While many would think that eye watering fog and pupil blasting strobe lights would be more than enough to disorient us this Halloween you confound our sense of balance even further with eye rattling 3-D glasses
(can't see crap in this place)
Normally 3-D glasses are used to make 2-D movie images seem to float off the screen but here you use them to make 3-D objects seem....well, 3-D.
(wow, looks so real)
As if asking for $50 just to get into the place wasn't enough you want us to pony up another sawbuck just to enjoy a maze
(more expensive than the rennaissance faire)
So crack open an ice cold Blood Light O' Giver of the Goggles because paying extra for glasses makes us see one thing - RED
(mr 3-D maze glasses salesman)

Blood Light Beer
Anhowsyourbusch
Buena Park, California


meep i'm testing on friday! i hope i don't screw up...then i can be a yellow belt! hurray!

wow it's been 8 or 9 years since i tested for a belt....i don't remember what goes on or anything...heh hope i don't get too nervous.


*rolls eyes*

i'm not gonna say anything...but come on now....


oh man. i almost started crying durin the math test, it was that bad. and i wasn't the only one. everyone was just slumped over their desks in frustration. i started laughing near the end because that was all i could do really, laugh. bianca goes "you think that's bad? you should see the final!" thanks bianca....

aside from that school went as usual...boring...haha mike bianca and i were talking about harry potter during asian studies. i said i wouldn't have fun because they don't serve vegan food at hogwarts and mike said that they could just bewitch the food so whatever i touched would turn vegan

me: hah yeah like if someone was selling candy bars or something and i asked if they were vegan and they said no...*i grab an imaginary candy bar* well they are now!

me: hey there aren't any drugs at Hogwarts
Bianca: hah yeah
me: i bet mike would---
Mike: what?
me: we were talking about how there are no drugs at Hogwarts and you would probably--
Mike: yeah i would! I'd like bewitch the weed to make me high...me and Ron would sit in the corner and pass the bong--no wait Neville! And he'd spike his hair and be all cool like..."ey"...and all the girls would be like "oh Neville!!" *giggles and covers his face*

Bianca: time to get highlighters
me: oh i thought you said time to get high!
Mike: No, I would say that

Mike: I was in the kitchen the other day and i was like "my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard..."...the sad part about that is it's true.

Greg (to the foreign exchange student, Ben): Do you have a lot of pots?

Kim: I should stay away from big books.

Kraft: what does the wheel stand for?
Greg: EIGHT fold path. 8 Kenya, 8 fold path.
Kenya: I KNOW Greg. I'm not the one who said 12.

Mr. Erdman: *jumps* i was a little electron
Zeb: little?
Mr. Erdman: I made more noise when i landed
Christina: it was an earthquake!

Erdman: I was born on the Epiphany....the day the wise men came...wise man get it? eh? eh?

Erd: hahaha i was xraying the hell out of my kids....they're all dead from cancer now...in fact it may have been some of your parents!


Tuesday, December 02, 2003


you're on the list! ya nut.

i bought the rights to Warlain's name for 30 cents. muahaha.


thanks for getting that piña colada song stuck in my head guys...aha oh well i got "miss you " stuck in mike's head. well only the part that goes "don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head"

i kept asking people "Have you ever walked through a room but it was more like the room passed around you?" and one person said yes so i said "like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through?" and they said yes again so i asked "Have you ever buried your face in your hands 'cause no one around you understands?" but then i lost 'em.

then i began telling people that i tried to sniff coke once but the ice got stuck in my nose. haha. i like that one.


wheee...i got new chucks...people thought they were cool.

yay for christmas shopping! i'll probably go this weekend...i think i know what i'm getting everyone.


oh yeah and i was running around in the Offspring chatroom acting crazy and shouting lyrics...and i found a Blink 182 fan! haha so i made a new friend.

she's from Canada and she said there are lots of hot guys at her school....lol i wanna live in Canada.


i know you wanna hit that , hit that. ahh such a great song

me: well Jonah was a black belt years ago
Kim: He's Jonah. Wonderboy.
*later*
Kim:...i bet he can't skank!

Kim and I at the same time: HEY DIDDLE DIDDLE
(we were talking about paradiddles and drumming and whatnot)

Kim:...and then i realized i was flipping through the phonebook!

Ms. Kraft: What is the Lion (in a Buddhist piece of art) a symbol of?
Greg (The Buddhist): Mark!
Ms. Kraft: No...that's Christianity

Ms. Kraft: What does the wheel stand for?
Greg: uh....12....fold path?
Ms. Kraft: No EIGHT fold path

Greg: come on Kenya (our other resident Buddhist) you don't know what the lion stands for?
Kenya: you thought it was a TWELVE fold path

Greg: hey Buddha has a halo!...he's secretly Christian!

Christina: (about our new Spanish books) they changed the title!
Karim: Duh! That was a stupid comment.
Christina: Look Ms. Quitegui they changed the title
Ms. Quitegui: oh.
Christina: see? she said "oh"
Karim: She's just trying to make you feel better

hehe Bianca and I went to ms. Thrasher's during 6th so we could get tickets for the play tomorrow and Eddie was there so he talked to me about GSA and that cute new foreign exchange student...hehe.


turns out i DIDN'T fail my chem test! i still did pretty crappily though.


ahh just went crazy with the offspring lyrics there. god dammit i don't think they're gonna play here any time soon...it says they're gonna be in paris in march after acoustic christmas....bahhhh!

holy crap the lineup for acoustic christmas is really good.

saturday december 13: linkin park, the offsrping, pod, afi, puddle of mudd, pennywise, chevelle, distillers, and thrice.

sunday december 14: 311, staind, rancid, jet, trapt, brand new, jane's addiction, korn, and blink 182.

both those days sound really awesome.


All I want
All I need
Always lies just out of reach
I've been coming up empty

I've run as fast
As I can run
I've pushed as hard as anyone
Still there's nothing for me

I've tried as hard as I can
I've taken all I can stand
But I am running a race
Against myself

Burning out
Strung along
Now my sorrow is my song
My whole world is half-hearted

For my pain
I have none
After all is said and done
Now I'm back where I started

I've gone as far as I can
I've taken all I can stand
But I am running a race
Against myself


haha!!

when you're in prison don't pick up the soap
don't pick up the soap
don't pick up the soap

when you're in prison don't be no one's bitch
be no one's bitch
be no one's bitch
they won't help you make it through

when you're in prison don't turn the other way

you can make it through


hahah good song.


Deep inside your soul, there's a hole
You don't want to see
Every single day, what you say
Makes no sense to me
Even though I try
I can't get my head around you

Somewhere in the night, there's a light
In front of me
Heaven up above, with a shove
Abandons me
And even though I try
I fall in the river of you
You manage to bring me down too

All your faking
Shows you're aching

Every single day, what you say
Makes no sense to me
Letting you inside isn't right
Cause you'll mess with me
I never really know
What's really going inside you
I can't get my head around you

All your feeding
Shows you're bleeding

Deep inside your soul, there's a hole
You don't want to see
You're covering it up, like a cut
With the likes of me
You know I've really tried
I can't do anymore about you

The cut's getting deeper
The hill's getting steeper
I guess I'll never know
What's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you


lol chry this is the ska song. coincidence? i think not! hehe.

The Worst Hangover Ever

Went out drinking late last night
I had a blast
But now the morning light has come
And kicked my ass

I've got the worst hangover ever
I'm crawling to the bathroom again
It hurts so bad that I'm never gonna drink again

And by my seventh shot
I was invincible
I would have never thought
I'd be this miserable

I've got the worst hangover ever
I'm rolling back and forth on the bed
I'm worked so bad that I'm never gonna drink again

Won't someone just kill me
And put me out of my misery
I'm making deals with God, I'll do anything
Make it stop please!
Make it stop please!

I've got the worst hangover ever
I'm crawling to the bathroom again
It hurts so bad that I'm never gonna drink again
I'll probably never drink again
I may not ever drink again
At least not 'til next weekend
I'm never gonna drink again


AHHHHHHH!!! SKA ON THE OFFSPRING CD!!! lol this is the best offspring cd ever!

man i'm so gonna buy this the first day it comes out. i considered pre ordering it but according to mike it's cheaper to buy it at best buy. so i think i'm gonna do that.

wow but ska? yay!

if you wanna listen to the new offspring cd go here Offspring-y goodness

go buy it December 9th kids!


Monday, December 01, 2003


taekwondo was fun today! we learned these new, more complicated moves. it was fun!


Lois: i got in the quotebook! i got in the quotebook!

lol lois is so great. she came to hang out with us during 6th today because they don't golf on mondays. then we went to go watch like 20 minutes of the varsity soccer game. they scored a goal...i was happy...but also sad because i couldn't be out there playing. then i saw ms.kehr and i was suddenly really glad i wasn't playing this year. lol.

Bianca: i hate her and i never had her for P.E.!

Belinda: *really sleepily* hey jen have you ever been to a....oh wait....you were on the soccer team last year
me: haha were you about to ask me if i've ever been to a soccer game?

Belinda: i hate olives....oh wait...i've never had an olive

lol Belinda was really out of it today.

yeah today was half nice half shitty...got an a on my art history test but got a REALLY crappy grade on my chem test....meh oh well i get to drop it so as long as i do really well on the next one i'll be fine...and now for some quotes

(i can't remember if i posted some of these before)
Ms. Kraft: My husband's father is from England
Greg: does he talk funny?

*Mr. Liu writes "sea food" on the board*
Liz: sex food?!

Aaron: i want to touch Buddha

if Bianca could design her own reality show it would be titled "take off your shirt and let Bianca touch your abs"

if Alan could design his own reality show it would be called "get the answer wrong and DIE!"

if Alan could be a carrot or cabbage..."i'd be a carrot because then i'd be long and hard"

Kraft: I don't know why Buddha has such a long tongue
Kenya: to pick his nose

Kraft: so is there someone you want, you desire that you can't have? (talking about Buddhism and desires)
Hector: J.lo

Kraft: *talks about how you work hard all your life and then you die*
me: you can stop when you're dead
Becky: that's a terrible story!
me: welcome to reality, Becky

Christina: (to mr.erdman) I'm dying to know...who cuts your hair?

Lois: Happy Bunny? He should be called mean bunny!
me: that doesn't sell as well as happy bunny
Lois: well then...Bitchy Bunny!



Warlain58: i intend to get drunk and run people over
THE gwenanobi: lol sounds good to me
Warlain58: you know you're an alcoholic when A) you pour yourself 2 drinks at a time B) you drink just to enhance your vice city experience
Warlain58: I'm a sad, sad little man


THE gwenanobi: you should write a fake autobiography and make up tons of lies about your childhood
THE gwenanobi: that would be fun
satrnascends110: you know
satrnascends110: that would be so much fun lol
THE gwenanobi: haha except 15 pages is a lot
satrnascends110: o man the things i could put in there
THE gwenanobi: yeah i mean the teacher guy would never know
THE gwenanobi: unless you said something like your parents were drug dealers and they sold you to the circus for a few years
satrnascends110: omg
satrnascends110: i could
satrnascends110: how funny could trhat story
satrnascends110: be
THE gwenanobi: hahahah
THE gwenanobi: yeah! see you can do this
satrnascends110: "i was molested by a transvestite clown at the asge of 7"
THE gwenanobi: HAHHAHAH
THE gwenanobi: see now whenever you decide to start this..
satrnascends110: " im not sure why but to this day i think i enjoyed it somewhat"
satrnascends110: .....
THE gwenanobi: lol


sometimes i think there has to be someone/thing up there screwing with me because there's no way this stuff isn't planned.

then i think "nah" and go back to my athiesm.

if there is a god he clearly despises me...therefore there is no god.

logic of the day.




YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT!


Home
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere And their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tommorow, no tommorow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you 'Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very Mad World Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me