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Tuesday, September 30, 2003


i applied for another job today...i don't think i'll get it though because i think i applied too late...hmm it would be a really really awesome job though.


dude i watched the fairly oddparents today....PANTS ARE FOR SQUARES!!! and so is hygine! i think i spelled that wrong. eh.

then i watched THE GAUNTLET because the miz is on there and he's cool. and abram is MINI MIZ!! ahahahah! that's gweat. so far i don't like matt...he opposes my father (satan), and that's just not cool. i wish colin was there to make johnny mosely jokes and be cool and stuff. he was cool.


haha i found this amusing

THE gwenanobi: then i'll eat your brother
s0kaligirl: dont hav one
THE gwenanobi: good
s0kaligirl: haha
THE gwenanobi: then i'll eat him
s0kaligirl: aiite
THE gwenanobi: that's why you don't have one
THE gwenanobi: i ate him
s0kaligirl: or did u already EAT HIm!!!!! and dats y i dot have one
s0kaligirl: hahaha
THE gwenanobi: exactly!
s0kaligirl: OMG!
s0kaligirl: well my sister used to tell meeh my mom foudn meeh under a bridge
THE gwenanobi: aww!
THE gwenanobi: lol that's mean


haha maia is so calm and quiet on the phone...hey just like in real life! aha..yeah i'm loud and annoying


ahh well not saturday then...next friday! hurrah!


dum de dum...hmm today was sleepy and boring...like usual. i drew comics in ms. kim's class insead of paying attention...which will probably bite me in the ass later but eh. she mentioned something about moving me back up to the front of the class since i don't participate in discussions anymore...i never participated to being with! your class is hella boring, YOU are hella boring, and i'm bored! so whatever if she moves me back into her line of vision i'll just sleep with my eyes open.

art history...looked at pictures of naked guys. nice. haha hector was dissapointed he missed out on the oh so interesting lecture yesterday

chem....wow that went really fast today. erdman had to cram in two days of chem so we would be caught up with the other class. the price of fame i suppose.

-----okay that was really creepy. all of a sudden i heard this female voice through my window going "stop! no stop! please!" uhmmm.....uh.....yeah....anyway....

4th period i was caught talking to kimberly....i gotta stop doing that.

5th period we had a test! wow! but after that it was back to doing nothing as usual.

spanish we did nothing as well...we'll work tomorrow ms. quitegui we promise! haha.
so belinda and i were singing "rock the casbah" (...we only know one line "rock the casbah!") and writing with two pens on paper because it's fun. so belinda wrote "rock the caz-box" on the paper.

me: caz-box? hahah what?
belinda: yeah! rock the caz-box!
me: hahaha no dude it's rock the CASBAH
belinda: oh my god! all this time i've been singing the song wrong!

hahah i couldn't tell she was singing caz-box. that's almost as bad as box you up...or box sue up! haha.

yep so that was about all today...i fell asleep on the bus. ooh but my ticket for 6 flags came today...i think maia mary and i are gonna go for fright night. everyone else is either busy or attached to someone else. indeed well it should be fun. dun dun dun BRUTAL PLANET! the maze where you have to be older than 10 to go inside...and older than 13 to be without an adult! wowee sounds scary. and fun! hehehe.


Monday, September 29, 2003


whoa where the hell did my post go?


i am da blog queen! so far i have created 5 blogs...actually i've created more than that because i made a strong bad blog that mike had for a while...then i made my own homestar one...so i guess 7? wheee! chry says i should charge...lol not that there's anyone left to charge anymore. hmmm maybe i'll move on to blurties....for my work see Kim's, Mike's, Elliot's, Chry's, and my own blog!

people can't see the cellar door picture for some reason. that makes me sad in my pants :-(


tini bikiniLdy: i was jus reminisin aboot how today i said it was really hot and laura told me to take off my sweater but hen i heasitated because i forgot to put on a t-shir tthis mornin
THE gwenanobi: hahahahahahha!
THE gwenanobi: OMG! that made me laugh so hard!
tini bikiniLdy: sweet.......that is my purpose in life


lol!

[about ms. kim]
satrnascends110: that cracked out whore will be the death of me

satrnascends110: *sigh*
THE gwenanobi: hahah
satrnascends110: i suppose i WAS doomed for failure
satrnascends110: *grabs noose*
satrnascends110: never thought id have to do this again.....
THE gwenanobi: hahahhaha!


today was pretty cool on a stick...

so this morning mike picked me up in his awesome van...his awesome ghetto van. haha. then we picked up chry and arrived at school around the time i'd normally arrive.

first period was so boring...i tried hard to stay awake but i guess i didn't try hard enough.
ms. kim: see the back row is good. they're studious. (the back row consists of Eric, Aaron, myself, Lorenzo, Ohudy Hannibal, and...uh...can't remember his name)
Eric: hahah studious?
Aaron: i think she was joking.

Lorenzo was making weird noises and i was laughing...

then 2nd period was actually very interesting. first we had announcements by the principal guy from Boston Public...they were funny! he was like "if you lost a wad of 100 dollar bills wrapped in a rubber band...we found the rubber band" and other funny stuff. then we learned about Kylixes and Heterae! Heterae are the prostitutes from Greece who were educated and they would have these big parties with lots of wine, intellectual discussions, and sex. haha. so they would drink wine out of these gigantic bowl things called kylixes. at the bottom they would have pornographic scenes and stuff. lol ms. kraft was telling us all about it...everyone was paying attention to her.

Alejandro: these people have a lot of problems! [upon learning that the Greeks often put images of women urinating in the bottom of kylixes]....my image of the Greek culture has been shattered.

ms. kraft: the heterae were also known as sluts...
(kim and i mouth to each other across the room): dirty slut!

haha and then ms. kraft said that they wouldn't have had victoria's secret back then....more like victor's secret...haha...then there was the image of the dying Gal! nooooo don't die Gal!! haha. Gaul actually i think it's spelled. ms. kraft said low rise jeans were very sexy...assuming people who wear them have a body like Venus de Milo and not Roseanne Barr. haha.

then 3rd period the guy from Boston Public came to film the TV show "but i play one on tv" in our chem class. it was really awesome! Lorenzo got nervous when they shoved the camera in his face haha. what a day to wear my "praise seitan" shirt eh? so Chi McBride...he plays Steve Harper performed some experiments in our chem class...and quizzed us on the periodic table. haha. so we basically didn't learn anything today...but it was fun! he was really funny...and the experiments he did(with mr erdman's help) were really cool.

the other two classes of the day were boring...except spanish of course. and asian studies where mike nearly blinded himself with my special light up venice high school pen.

then mike gave kim and i a ride home. twas pretty cool.

so that's all...i've gotta go write a stupid essay now. la de dah.


Sunday, September 28, 2003


Write these words back down inside
We have burned their villages and all the people in them died
We adopt their customs and everything they say we steal
All the dreams they had we kill
Still we all sleep sound tonight
Is this what you wanted to hear?
We erased all their images and dance
And replaced them with borders and flags

At the top of this timeline you'll remember
This is the lipstick on the collar
And in my own life I've seen it in the mirror
sometimes at the cost of others hopes

So write these words back down inside
That's where you need it the most
and without conviction of heart you will never feel it at all
Yeah, we all dance to the same beat when we we're marching
Yeah, the TV tells us everythign we need to know
And this scene is painting in all the fashions of the moment
And history is all the same

Everything you say you stole
Every dream you dream you bought


squeee worldfest was so fun! yesterday beeny and i saw ghost world...it was really good. hmmm rather donnie darkoish....depressing. ooh THAT'S what i should recommend to davis next time he asks me what he should rent. ghost world. unless he's already seen it. anyway then we watched reno 911 which was hilarious. "you guys! we were totally wrong...she isn't a prostitute. so i'm gonna take her home and...can i borrow 350 bucks?" hahah and then one of the people was trying to do a drug bust and she was busted by another guy trying to do a drug bust...good times.

then weevil bit me. several times. i'm sure she was thinking about fresh meat. haha. or maybe she thought my hand was a cat toy. i have battle scars.

then the next morning i woke up...watched spongebob...then we sang spice girls to people driving by in their cars. and lucy had sex with a tree (bum bum). so beeny had to one-up her by humping the tree. we made weird poses at strangers. twas fun.

then renatta (renata?) picked us up (with her mother and sister in tow) and we were off to worldfest! hurrah!

we got there before 12 so it was free. first we headed off to the animals. aww the kittens and the puppies were soooooo cute! i wanted to adopt a puppy. it was really really cute they would come up to me and lick my hand and...i want one dammit! unfortunately my apartment doesn't allow pets. and my dad hates pets. anyway then we went to go get some free food...mmmm freeee....they had these really really good vegan cookies...and lots of other good vegan stuff. then we went to go look at the other booths. i got a "praise seitan" shirt...muahaha. i also wanted one that said "no i don't eat meat. yes i get enough protein. no my shoes aren't made of leather. yes i have a life" hehe but renata got it. beeny explained that she couldn't get that shirt as she didn't have a life. i got a few buttons and a patch...we went to the action for animals booth and saw...dun dun dun....ms domac!!! ahhhh!! hehe she thought that beeny went to venice. i don't think she remembers my name. but that's fine. so then we wandered around a bit more and we saw john feldmann! hehe beeny talked to him..he was really nice. (for those of you who don't know john feldmann is the lead singer of beeny's favorite band goldfinger) he was with brian the guitarist of goldfinger (renata: i hope they aren't a couple!) hehe then after he left she started crying! crazy. then we listened to reggae music...and we left!

then beeny and i went to whole foods where we got those awesome vegan cookies...and other stuff. hurrah! then i forced my dad to take me to whole foods where he bought me some vegan cookies. muahaha. i already ate like 4. they're good.

yep so that was basically it...i got a crapload of free stuff...i'll probably bring some stuff to school so people can read it.


Saturday, September 27, 2003


dedicated to the two newly licensed drivers..muahaha.

Bad Habit

Hey man you know I'm really okay
The gun in my hand will tell you the same
But when I'm in my car
Don't give me no crap
Cause the slightest thing and I just might snap

When I go driving I stay in my lane
But getting cut off makes me insane
I open the glove box
Reach inside
I'm gonna wreck this fucker's ride

I guess I got a bad habit
And it ain't goin' away Yeah
Well they say the road's a dangerous place
If you flip me off I'm the danger you'll face
You drive on my ass
You're foot's on the gas
And your next breath is your last
Drivers are rude
Such attitudes
But when I show my piece
Complaints cease
Something's odd
I feel like I'm God
You stupid dumbshit goddam motherfucker

I open the glove box
Reach inside
I'm gonna wreck this fucker's ride


someday i'll have my license. someday...haha i'm afraid to drive anyway so does it matter?


kim! i wanna go see bouncing souls and tsunami bomb at the troubador on the 10th! i doubt i'll be allowed to go but ey i can always ask. haha i bet they're on your warped tour cd! actually...bouncing souls is on punk-o-rama. maybe warped...

i did homework. on a friday night. yes i'm a loser ahhhhh! oh well i have to get my rear in gear because i'm going to world fest! yayyyy.

ooh mike passed his driving test. hooray! now he can drive me around...for a small fee...haha. good job mike!


Friday, September 26, 2003


"I don't call it art, just some weirdo with too much time on their hands."---Claudia

hehe that's good.


tini bikiniLdy: well.......u can be my best friend
THE gwenanobi: yay!
tini bikiniLdy: and on best friends day
THE gwenanobi: lol
tini bikiniLdy: illl wear a t-shirt saying my best homies are laura and jennifer
THE gwenanobi: hahaah awesome!
tini bikiniLdy: and thenill have an arrow pointing down 2 mai vagina
tini bikiniLdy: :-/
THE gwenanobi: LOL!


THE gwenanobi: ey you and laura do everything together doncha?
tini bikiniLdy: sumtimes....exccept have sex cuz were jus friends and i like boys


tini bikiniLdy: i want a Cia t-shirt saying clevage inspection agency
THE gwenanobi: lol!


do do do i didn't do much today...in 1st i made a comic of Belinda's late night talk show instead of listening to ms.kim...it's pretty hilarious...but only to Belinda Bianca and I. oh man we better get into leadership next year...otherwise we won't have the spanish crew! Bah and Belinda is leaving us next semester because she has softball. bah!

anyway second period we had a quiz...eh not to bad. i started talking to the people that sit near me...which could be a good thing or a bad thing. i mean new friends are great but distractions are not...i coulda SWORN that girl's name was mimi last year. i think her name is really shicong and she changed it to Mimi for 9th grade and then this year she decided to go back to her real name? eh. anyway she's really really smart. damn smart 10th graders. like Isaac. *Isaac hops up and down* "Transposons!! Jumping genes!!!" hahah good times.

then in 3rd we had a test...wasn't too bad. whoops i forgot to pay Erdman. better remember that. ooh yeah and this guy is coming to our school to film this tv show "but i play one on tv" he's gonna teach ap chemistry...he plays the principal on Boston Public. hmm that's cool. Erdman seemed annoyed.

*someone sneezes*
all of us: bless you!
Erdman: hey! let's keep religion out of public school!

4th...hmm Komatsu caught Kim and i talking...whoops...then Gracie entertained us with her funny stories. haha Gracie is great. we're gonna have fun on the 11th.

hmmm 5th...didn't do much...

then 6th was a fiesta! yay! aww i felt bad for Karim...it's Ramadan and he was fasting. poor kid. so there was a whole mess of non vegan stuff...i brought some back for Kimberly because she didn't have a lunch. i was gonna give some to Chry too but i couldn't find her. everyone was commenting on how quiet we were...Bianca explained how we can't talk when we're eating.

Bianca: ohhhh i'm so full...*keeps eating*
me: stop eating!
Bianca: i can't, i'm Brazilian!

man Belinda said something really funny but i forgot to write it down. oh well.

Bianca: yeah in Italy they have gummi penises. they'll be gummi worms, gummi bears...then the gummi penises...then gummi eiffel towers...
Belinda: wow is that their state flower or something?
Bianca: what?! no that's YOUR state flower!

Belinda: see Nelly can't take off that bandaid...he'd lose his powers.
Bianca: I adopted Nelly.

then i was playing slide with myself on the table and Bianca mentioned how it looked like i was trying out for the steps team...so Belinda and I tried to play slide like we were doing a dance. it was actually quite difficult!


hehe and that's about all...ooh i watched the diary of jack black today. it was funny. i wanna see school of rock! october 3rd!


Thursday, September 25, 2003


haha i was watching the crossover dribble ( our play from 7th grade) and just cracking up. wee seth and ben israeli? hilarious! and of course wee claudia singing in the chorus! hahaha. oh and there's me. fast forwarding....


oh yeah and during lunch aaron and ben were scaring gal and i...too touchy feely if you ask us...

aaron: i'm not gay, i just think he's really sexy

lol.


oh wait i forgot a song for today. hmmm another bad religion one i think. this song is good:

Supersonic

Well, I am not making haste or could it be haste is making me
What’s time but a thing to kill or keep or buy or lose or live in
I gotta go faster
Keep up the pace
Just to stay in the human race
I could go supersonic, the problem’s chronic
Tell me does life exist beyond it?
When I need to sate, I just accelerate
Into oblivion
Into oblivion yah yah yah yah yah ya-ahn
Well here I go again, everything is alien
How does it feel to be outstripped by the pace of cultural change?
My deeds are senseless and rendered meaningless
When measured in that vein
I could go supersonic, the problem’s chronic
Tell me does life exist beyond it?
When I need to sate, I just accelerate into oblivion
I won’t lie, it’s exciting
When I try to decide things
I just want to live decently, meaningfully
I’m in misery
(pace setters, go getters)
(rat racers, forget hers)
(researchers, berserkers)
(strategies to help the workers)
(new time saving devices)
(quick vices, short splices)
(brevity, dependency)
(digital efficiency)
I could go supersonic, the problem’s chronic
Tell me, does life exist beyond it?
When I need to sate, I just accelerate into oblivion
Into oblivion yah yah yah yah yah ya-ahn


ooh sunday beeny and i are going to World Fest! yay! vegan guys, vegan food, what could be better? what could be greater than golf with a gator...gator golf give it a whack gator golf he'll throw it right back...oh jeebus how do i remember those commercial jingles? wow i'm really lame i can tell what food network show is on by their themesong....or i think i can. hmm i really like barefoot contessa. and alton brown of course. although when i get home molto mario's usually on. he's kinda cool. better than martha...ew and then 30 minute meals is on. gah rachel rey is so annoying.

man i'm so obsessed with thursday....i wish i could see them in concert but they're playing on halloween. trick or treating seems more fun than a thursday show (where i'd have to go by myself since nobody else likes them lol...except jeff i think)

andwheeeeeeeeeee


haha laura's bringing her video camera to knotts....if they let her film that's gonna be fun! i want a shirt...i think i shall get a shirt. ooh i got egg replacer so i baked vegan muffins today...they weren't too bad. a little bland but i can always add chocolate to them or something.


hmm today was pretty good. 1st period was boring...i had no idea what was going on. eh. 2nd period i didn't really pay attention either...i should've though because we have a test tomorrow. haha Kenya is a megalither! 3rd...haha i broke my first beaker today! 3 bucks to Mr. Erdman. Wow it hasn't been a month yet and i've already broken something. haha yesterday i dropped an entire drawer full of stuff but nothing broke. 4th...hmm i lost my bet to kimberly (who would do better on the math test) and she got 50 cents out of me. kim: we should've raised the bet! me: uh, no i'm glad we didn't. 5th was boring again...bianca and i had fun working on her extra credit statistics stuff.

me: hmmm what starts with the letter z anyway?
bianca: xylophone?
me: no...that's an x, bianca

6th was fun like always. i wrote about babies..."what animals did you meet while camping?" "i caught and ate many babies" "what animals are you afraid of?" "babies, that's why i eat them"

oh yeah and then i gave a short speech on why cow's milk actually does hurt cows because Karim and Steven thought I was kidding about being a vegan.

Belinda: Ben Israeli touched my feet one time. i was sitting in english class and i like to stretch my feet out. so i stretched my feet out one time and i felt something itchy so i reached down to scratch it and i said "oh!! that's a hand!" and then i went to his house one time for a project and laura wouldn't touch anything. he was like "sit down" and she said "no!"

so the question on bianca's extra credit thingy was 18= H on a G.C. i told bianca it was 18 holes on a golf course...but i guess she didn't listen to me...

esther: *looks at bianca's paper* isn't it 18 holes on a golf course? you put grated cheese.
me: bianca! i told you that one!
esther: you didn't even spell cheese correctly!
me:hahahah
bianca: oh my god! i don't remember that! it's all a blur.

bianca and i agreed that belinda should have her own talk show. it would feature bianca and myself as permanent guests and she would have a cardboard cut out of orlando bloom...and she would have a "sex corner" lol and we would be the musical guests each time and it wouldn't matter if we sucked because we could make them clap with the "applause sign." or bianca could make an applause sound on her keyboard. hahahah. we wanna actually do it though. that would be so cool! the belinda show.


Cool Site: Ultimate Haunt.com This site is awesome...i think it's run by people that work the Haunt...anyway both fans and monsters visit and talk about their experiences. Wow they get beaten up a lot. i still wanna work there though! that would be so cool.


Wednesday, September 24, 2003


oh yeah!! another great thing....i'm going to knotts scary farm!!!! with everyone i went with last year minus roshne plus laura and belinda. oh man that is gonna be so fun. with gracie!!! hehe and laura said she gets scared easily...muahaha! ahh it's gonna be so great i'm excited already. lol i'm so lame. i've been waiting for this day for a year. hahah. well only...17 days to go!! hurrah!

me: gracie....canabalistic inbreeds!
gracie: oh no!!!

bianca: gracie...rabbit like you!
gracie: oh no!!

haha bianca told me how she went with gracie last year and she told one of the vampires gracie's name...so the whole time they were walking through the maze they kept hearing "...gracie..." "...gracie...we're waiting for you....gracie...." haha sounds fun. lol gracie's dad didn't wanna go with her again because she ruined his shirt last time by stretching it out from being scared. hehe.


oh yeeeeah and i got my mp3 player back today. it seems to work. hooray! now i don't have to worry about my cd player going off during math class.


ooh...stepping on the scale was scary today...first i thought the scale was off but it wasn't...:-/ but oh well protein shakes and peanutbutter? and weightlifting? hopefully that will help. my mom said i'm gonna be like 30% body fat because i'm losing all my muscle...eep. better do something about that.


yay!!! that was a good end to the day.

i wonder if i changed my password back would that person stop posting in my blog? because i keep forgetting what i changed it to. then again i should just write it down somewhere and not lose the paper...because some people lie. eh. what can ya do? i don't really get it, nobody does. lol. weird.


man i lost a crapload of muscle...i have to go to the gym and build it all back....otherwise my mom said i might have to change my diet. eep.


hmmm i took the money i was supposed to apply to the PTSA with and bought a cool glowing pen instead....cool pen or 5 extra credit points? i chose the pen.

math test today...i think i'm getting my 50 cents from kimberly! muahahah. (we made a bet)

english was weird this morning...we had a lecture and a meditation thingy...then free food and a dr. seuss story?! ms. kim is definitely on crack.

art history we talked about phalluses...and ms. kraft's trip to greece...hahaha

ms kraft: we tried to get the naked people in the picture because we were at a nude beach...but you can't just take one up close so we had to pretend we were taking a picture of something else

ms. kraft: my husband doesn't even know about that trip and now you all know...

chem we did this fun lab....wow magnets are awesome. aaron burned himself! ahh that was funny and sad at the same time

aaron: ow! metal! hot! burning! skin! ow!

i asked christina if she thought we were annoying in spanish and she said no, but sometimes they (the other side of the room) felt left out because we three would be laughing hysterically about something and they wouldn't know what was so funny. so i told her to move closer to us and then they can be inside on all our jokes.

tomorrow i'm gonna write about babies! and dead babies! hooray. hehe.


People Who Should Have Their Own TV Show/hidden camera show/jackass show/ talk show

our spanish class
Mike, Jeff, and Elliot
Belinda
Aaron and Ben
our lunch group
Beeny
Chry and Kim

...the laughs would never end!


Quotes of the Day:

Mike: This chair squeaks like fuck *squeak squeak squeak*
Aaron: *turns around and gives mike one of his crazy looks*

Kraft: Barbie always has her feet in the high heel position...which then implies that Barbie is always meant to be on her back.

Vella: What's NaCl?
Mike: Salt
Vella: Yeah salt, like the kind you eat, the kind you put on your food, the kind you throw in your dog's eyes--
Mike: what?!

Bianca: Why is it so foggy outside? oh...that's the building...i thought it was mountains...no wonder they were so square...

Ben: I respect SWAT team members....and firemen...and people who push me out of the way of oncoming cars...and taco makers.

Aaron: you put your boobs on her head
Ben: They're pecs!
Aaron: yours are pecs. mine are man boobs.
Ben: saggy?
Aaron: more protruding

Aaron: *to ben* come here kitty!
*Claudia and I give each other weird looks*

Belinda: I wanna be a teacher...but i'd bite kids heads off and end up like Ms. Seelig
Bianca: old, bitter, and man-less?

*Belinda's phone beeps*
Bianca: Belinda, that's your phone
Belinda: *reaches for her phone* I don't know what you're talking about

Belinda: I was working in the office and I told my mom to call and i said "hello, Venice High School, student speaking" and she said "hello i'm Stella Leos" and i said "hello i'm Belinda Leos, hey we have the same last name!" and she said "honey, can you connect me to your counseolor?" and I said "sorry that's not possible" and she said "why not?" and i said "because i don't know you, you're a stranger" and she said "you've been talking to strangers all day!" and i said "maybe i don't connect them either" and then i said "sorry i don't talk to strangers" and i hung up.

Belinda: ba-ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba-ba....the joy of Belinda!

Bianca: OH MY GOD! I've been walking around with my shoes on the wrong feet...ALL DAY LONG!

hahah...people crack me up





hmmm i realized that i had a Bad Religion CD in my case from when the warehouse had a closing sale a while ago...so i decided to give it a listen and it's really good!


Nothing comes easier than madness in the world today
Mass paranoia is a mode not a melody
Yeah I'd like to watch all thousand cable channels but there's nothing on
And my high speed connection's monitored daily by the pentagon
These things are seldom what they seem
I'm not inclined to enjoy my dreams
won't go away

No Peace and No Friends
We Trace the mortal edge with no defense
To State the obvious
This world is perilous for us
No sense and No Guide
ain't it beautiful to be alive Yeah right
I won't resign before the struggle ends
So I'll construct this sound defense

We are the prey and culture is the predator
I'm running out of time where conditions are positionnal
Shadows of a doubt cast reluctance and depravity
There's got to be a way to overcome this grim reality
Is there an option left for me
I'm not immune to despondency
There's no way

No Peace and No Friends
We Trace the mortal edge with no defense
To State the obvious
This world is perilous for us
No sense and No Guide
ain't it beautiful to be alive Yeah right
I won't resign before the struggle ends
So I'll construct this sound defense

There's a signpost on the corner
and it keeps everybody safe
We were all made in the shade
And your mother's in the kitchen
where she's patching all the cracks in the wall
We never had to care in the world

Too much to sacrifice
it's hard to recognize
Just a compromise of purely deadly alibies
It's combinational
the pressure so intense
So I'll construct this sound defense

Nothing's plainer than the madness in the world today
I must conceal myself and steal myself and break away
I seek initiatives in matters that are black and white
So I'll construct this sound defense


Tuesday, September 23, 2003


quotes of the day

erdman: "i got one sandwich out of alien ant farm....they messed with my computers...now they all say 'greetings from alien ant farm' or something like that...they didn't pick Vella's room because of all the shit on the walls." (when alien ant farm filmed their dvd at our school)

erdman: the europeans and americans are at it again. who is right? us! they can't even spell color.

erdman: you can't name an element after anyone unless they're dead. He (Seaborg...this guy that worked at berkley and a bunch of elements were discovered while he was the head guy there or something) was chuggin along at 98...and wouldn't die! so they finally gave in and named the elements after him....and then he died.

Belinda: one day in June...I thought it was Easter.

Belinda: I asked my dad what the word is when the court orders you to stay in your house and he said "house arrest...i think...why...what did you do?"

la la la today was boring...at least it was short. did fine on my chem quiz, surprisingly. math test tomorrow...bleh. i sorta learned the really cool "egyptian" part to "come out and play" but it didn't sound right. mike made me laugh in Asian Studies wheee that was fun.


Monday, September 22, 2003


In this room I'm sitting by your side.
It rains for hours and the phone is off its hook.
Standing on the edge, casting lots to set me up before you knock me down,
off the summer's edge and drown me.
We're betting on our own lives, making up for all the time we lost.
In this house of cards we're all holding hearts and spades
(one breath, one step could knock it all down)
but you lead with your eyes and you give it away
(decide, design to cut from the clouds).
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle,
you let it go and then you fold.
So we stay on the open road.
We drive for hours and still no end in sight at all.
Driving in your car, miss the stop sign, fall in love, just to get knocked out.
Pull your punches and burn with your cigarettes.
Pulled like a punch and burnt like a cigarette?
forever.


haha christina liked the answers we provided on her survey thingy. she said they made her crack up. yay! stupid english test....blah.

We'll all look the same someday
And even now the robot starts to think
I wonder what it dreams
The Tide is high on Fourtheeth Street
The rain comes in to clear the heat
The way in is the same way out
the way up is the same way down
Now there is no safe way down


quotes of the day

mr. erdman: Great scientists...are gorgeous...have moustaches (strokes moustache)..even the women!

erdman: (mocking christian pamphlets that 'disprove' atoms) god's love holds us together. atoms don't exist, god's love holds us together! let's stop studying because... god's love holds us together. write that on your AP test. God's love.

kenya: my mom cried reading this book to me...it was a picture book called jumping mouse.

Aaron: they're running out of names for roller coasters. i mean they're so stupid. what's the newest one?
me: scream
Aaron: see? that's stupid.
Mike: yeah, they're gonna name the next one Aaron

(nobody else thought that was funny but Gal, Belinda, Bianca and I thought it was hilarious)

Claudia: oh no i forgot to go pee! i kinda lost the feeling but i'm gonna die next period...and we're using WATERCOLORS!

erdman: if you're an astronaut don't you have to bring your poop back with you? if you shoot it out it will just orbit your shuttle!

karim: yeah i have to go to court next week, ms. q.
class: ooooooh
karim: for a traffic violation!
class:ooooooh!
karim:....shut up.


Saturday, September 20, 2003


hahah gal got me into israeli rap. lol first indian music, now israeli rap, what next?


Le Le Low

Mediocrity's got me so opportunities have been slow.
Sentiment has got me feeling low.
My left back speaker's blown.
Left the radio on.
Who left the door unlocked?
Now my hit's stolen.
Where's all your passion gone?
Where's all your fashion gone?
Where's all your magic gone?
Now you feel famous?
Encyclopedias sold through the media.
Fashion is feeding us identification.
Consequential because she doesn't but he does.
Metric systemic buzz is making me anxious.
Applaud the effort you display,
as long as it don't sound the same.
It's second rate you know.
Average if not below.
Sentiment has got me feeling le-le-le-le-le-low!
I just shouldn't even say... but it all sounds the same.
Mediocrity cold killed your act.


Quotes from yesterday

Ms. Kim: YOU'RE KILLING ME!
Aaron: She finally snapped! *drops pen*

Ms. Kim: Oh my god you're killing me! *screams in a high pitched voice*
Aaron: sweet jesus. she's snapped

Ms. Kim: Am i smoking crack for breakfast?!
Aaron: Obviously

Aaron: *whispers* she's insane!!

Erdman: the heavier metals do this alpha bit. alphabet! ha!

me: damn [mulan's family] is rich
mike: they're japs
me: they're chinese!
mike: oh yeah...

bianca: (selling nut & fruit kudos bars): I want somebody to buy one so i can say "nuts in your mouth!"

Mike: Nick Lachey. What a hottie. are you putting that in there?
me: i don't know how to spell Lachey
Mike: L-A-C-H-E-Y
me: of course you would know
mike: damn straight

Aaron: *chokes on a sandwich*
me: don't die!
Aaron: that's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me

Kim: well you don't have a pirate sticker!
Claudia: ohhhhhh! burn!
Gal: the ultimate comeback

Belinda: I want a flying car!

Christina: can you guys fill out this survey for me?
Belinda: wanna see my boobs?
Christina:...i wasn't expecting that one
*Belinda stands up and flashes her stomach at Christina which has "BOOBS!" written on it*

Ms. Q: What does bonito mean?
class: beautiful
Belinda, Bianca, and I: Beautiful...i just want you to know...you're my favorite girl...

Christina: what theme should we have for homecoming?
me: midieval!
Belinda: pirates!
Bianca: fish!

Bianca: he was being all sexual. eww!
Belinda: i'm taking off my belt!
me: what?!
Belinda: at least i'm not scratching my balls like Ben I.

Beeny: see this is why i'm gonna be a lesbian. boys don't listen to me.

Beeny: *lauren walks through the door* dinner! *cameron walks through the door* dessert!
Beeny: that knee would look nice...on my plate
Beeny: hmm i'll take the right thigh...

Rick: Beeny, I'm gonna come to your house someday and bother your children.

me: bastard.
Beeny: what?
me: Bastard!
Beeny: what?
*person next to Beeny*: BASTARD!
Beeny: ohhhhh

and the quote of the day was:

Lady in the store: Are you guys drunk?!


hehe beeny and i are gonna write a book.

moshing, crowdsurfing, and circle pits...3 things i didn't expect to see.


EIC: music's gone down the shithole
beeny: *to me* then why are you HERE?
me: good question beeny. good question.



The Chronicles of Elitest Indie Chick

*the first band The Joggers asks "who's voting for Arnie?"*
Elitest Indie Chick: Don't make small talk with us. We're not your friends. We hate you.

EIC: Music's gone down the shithole

*"I wanna be sedated" comes on and everyone sings along*
EIC: eww the Ramones. Stop singing you douchebags!

(hahahah douchebag (sp?) is the funniest insult ever)

*some people move in front of EIC*
EIC: uhhh excuse me did you just move in front of me?
person:...yeah
EIC: are you planning on staying there?
person:...yeah
EIC:well i think that's really bitchy!

haha and her hair was all smushy in the front and flippy in the back! hehhee.


Thursday, September 18, 2003


ooh so maia says her parents can pick us up from knotts. w00t! so right now we have room for 2 other people besides herself, myself, and mary. if more people wanna go...we gotta get another car fools.

squeeeeee knotts twice! oh man october is gonna rock so hard. hoobastank, knotts, 6 flags (maybe), and of course KIM'S BIRTHDAY! ooh ooh and laura's too! hell yes.


tomorrow! yayyyyyy!


quotes are fun for the whole family...just like bianca says

did i mention how much i hate english? yeah...oh well...here we go again...so we finish reading thomas paine's american crisis shiznit and she hands out this worksheet. i look at the first question, can't find it, and space out. then i see that ms. kim is watching me space out so i quickly pretend like i'm doing something. so 20 minutes later she goes "what if i told you guys this was a pop quiz and you have 5 minutes to talk to your neighbors and complete it?" everyone else in the class was like "OH FUCK!" but aaron and i were like "ehhh she's bluffing" "I wonder if it really is a quiz, though" i said to him "nah." he said "look how she got everyone to work. she's bluffing" so aaron, eric and I tried to come up with some b.s. but in the end we ended up answering one and a half questions (out of...uh...a lot). So ms. kim goes "okay pass up your papers" and i'm like "oh shit aaron! it really was a quiz!" and he goes "nah...she's still bluffing" lol. so i look at the papers that people are handing in. they're the same as mine, only one question filled out. so ms. kim lectures us about not asking her questions because she's not teaching us correctly or whatever and then finally we start to go over the stupid document because obviously everyone was clueless. rawr...she sucks. chry gets the cool english class :-(. i loved my english class last year. ms. willcox was really cool...i got to write an essay on donnie darko..and i got an a on it! hehe. it was so much more interesting than this crap...plus she appreciated my work.

2nd period...last day of egypt...but greece is next! yay!

3rd period...haha that was awesome. i wore my vegan shirt today but mr. erdman didn't say anything. so we talked about electrons and protons and he brought out this cathode ray tube which shot electricity through a metal turning it a pretty green.

erdman: see if this school ever went columbine we'd be okay because i have a weapon (his little "taser" which shoots out 100,000 volts of electricity). i mean it has an extension cord and everything. see first they'd have to get through the door. now if i was gonna go columbine i'd be on the bridge...or on top of the buildings...not inside. (everyone gives mr. erdman an "uh....oookay..." look). I think about these things. anyway so the door handle is made out of metal right? so all i'd have to do is stand behind this wall and use this on the door handle. then when they're being electrocuted someone can hit them with a stool...then we'll torture them!

hahah erdman is so crazy. but he makes chem fun.

Ba(Na)2­=BaNaNa
Co(Fe)­­2=CoFFee
K9P= dog urine (canine pee ahahah!)

then one girl asked erdman why he always picks on girls and he told us this story about how he was a shy nice guy in highschool and all the girls went for the guys that look like gangbangers...hahah so now he gets to get his revenge.

erdman: irish food: you can only do so many things with potatoes

in asian studies today we watched mulan. hahah that was awesome. spanish was fun like always i wrote about riding ducks and going to stores that are wet and buttery. haha.

Quotes for today:

Belinda: i wish i was tall. then i could pee in a stall.

Erdman: then his son won a Nobel Prize
Belinda: we should get us one of those

Mike: ich bin verrlicht! *does a crazy dance*

Gal: Ben has man boobs
Ben: they're called pecs fool!

*ms. nagata and ms. komatsu laugh hysterically at something on a piece of paper*
*gal, claudia, and i look at them then each other*
claudia: uhhh...what are they laughing at ?
*i take a piece of scratch paper from a bin on ms. nagata's desk*
*claudia, gal, and i laugh hysterically at the blank piece of paper*
claudia: ohhhhhh 4-1 squared!

Belinda: i'm not a stripper!...sometimes

Belinda: hahaha...whitney houston's a crack head.

Me: How can they not have poder? it's so irregular!
Bianca: like Belinda!

Me: Belinda!
Belinda: WHO'S CALLING?!

Belinda: (singing the state song) New Mexico...New...Idaho...New York!

haha i wanna make a quote book just like Colin. because colin (from Real World Hawaii) is awesome!


Wednesday, September 17, 2003


i was going through my old folders looking for chem stuff i did in the 8th grade...holy crap! i was smart back then! i actually knew chemistry...wow...what happened? haha i forgot everything...i was looking at this test and i was like "damn." haha.

so i looked at other stuff like 7th grade math...i was like "what the fuck is going on here?" it was all like ~R=>QvP |- Q^P or something and somehow i got the right answer and there were all these little code words everywhere....wow. haha.

and then i looked at some other stuff and there were doodles everywhere haha...pages and pages of crappy doodles and then half of my chem notes were torn at the bottom and i was like "whaaa?" but then i remembered that i used them to write...different kinds of notes. haha. and on one of my worksheets there's a conversation i had with chris about how angel is an "toidi" because he liked to spell things backwards...ahh good times.


yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy belinda, laura, bianca and i are going to knotts scary farm! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

i've been waiting to go again since last year. hehe dun dun duunnnnn smaller group this time...wonder if i'll be more scared....dun dun duuuun.

hehe nah laura can be scared for me. like gracie was scared for me last time. aww gracie :-( i'm not going with her this year. that makes me sad.


"Naked In The City Again"

Says she's got it all.
I don't wanna be the one to tell her that she don't.
Late night, in a lonely city...
So hard, she tries to look pretty.
Boys don't even notice her though.
She's in need of attention so...
Lost and naked in the city again.
Intoxicated by a quarter to ten.
Lost and naked in the city again.
Begging for a piece of their attention.


i learned a new word today

Main Entry: quag·mire
Pronunciation: 'kwag-"mIr, 'kwäg-
Function: noun
Date: circa 1580
1 : soft miry land that shakes or yields under the foot
2 : a difficult, precarious, or entrapping position : PREDICAMENT


ooh so i went to the AFS site to look up foreign exchange programs to Spain...wow it sounds so great. I really wanna go. it's about a month long and you go to school there...there's a spanish immersion program for costa rica (with more intensive language courses and such) but my mom thinks that spain will be a better place to visit.

i think i'd have to give up veganism though...meep

oh yeah and it's $4,565. ouch.


do do de do today was an okay day. so first period ms. kim gives us a big speech about how grades and numbers aren't important and yadda yadda her family got perfect SAT scores and they're all fire fighters blah blah and nobody gets a's in her class. Thanks Ms. Kim, thanks. I'm glad your family went on to become firefighters but i want to do something that involves getting into a good college. that means getting good SAT scores and getting a good GPA i.e. an A in your class. so while the numbers don't matter to you they matter very much to me and the rest of the real world. i think all standardized tests are full of crap but that doesn't mean i'm not gonna study and i'm not gonna care. then she pushed the test back till monday. hurray! that means i get the whole weekend to work on killer angels. man i have so much shit to do this weekend...i hope i don't slack off.

2nd period was pretty cool Ms. Kraft made some funny comments and we studied more egyptian art. yay! ancient history rox0rs my sox0rs. i've found out that i really really like art history. it's so interesting to me! that's a good thing. man what a change from euro. i used to sleep behind my book in euro. or if we didn't have books i would almost manually force my eyes to stay open. and lucky me i had a seat right in front of ms. seelig. bleh.

3rd period....hmm we got our tests back and i didn't do nearly as badly as i thought i did. i made some stupid errors...and i STILL don't get sig figs! dammit. so kim and i are going in for help tomorrow.

4th period...*snore*

5th period...*more snore*

then at lunch was written voice yay! chry and i were gonna read the guacamole song in a dramatic voice but she wasn't there :-(. So eddy (eddie?) went up and read some poetry and it was really really good. it was about how he used to go to brentwood and how he was treated there...it was sad but there were some funny bits. then he read another sad poem. i have to figure out what i'm gonna submit this time. hmm i like writing stories but i have no inspiration right now....i've been writing more songs than anything else lately.

then 6th period we had a lot of fun. we were doing a worksheet so belinda, bianca, and i decided to do ours based on a theme. belinda did hot boys, i did bathrooms, and bianca did pants.

example: (we're supposed to be writing about a city we visited)

what places did you visit? i visited bathrooms
what restaurants did you eat at? we ate in the bathroom.
what commercial centers did you buy things at? i bought toiletries in the bathroom
what museums did you visit? they called the bathroom "the museum"
what dance places did you visit? we danced in the bathroom
did you dance a lot? yes, i danced a lot
did you have fun? yes, i had lots of fun

bianca: yes, i had lots of fun...in my pants!

belinda: my museum was the backseat of a car

then i wrote a short paragraph about clean and dirty bathrooms.

ms. q said she likes reading our answers to questions because they're funny. she said we can't do that in any class other than english. we told her that sadly, answers such as ours would not be accepted in english class. if we wrote silly essays we'd get fs on our papers. stupid english class. we need a creative writing class.

then belinda said something in a teen girl squad voice and karim said "what?! do that again!" so we went through the beginning of episode 3 and the other side of the room was amused. one girl thought we were imitating pokemon. haha. so they were like "what is that?" so i wrote the address to the homestar runner website on the board.

then i went to the park and got my community service card signed. wheee.

quotes for today:

bianca: a beached belinda!

me: (to the tune of la bamba) Ms. Kim's voice is annoying, it's annoying, it annoys me! Ms. Kim's house--
bianca: Ms. Kim's house?
me: Ms. Kim's house is annoying, it's annoying it annoys me. Ms. Kim's cat is annoying, it's annoying, it annoys me!
bianca: what did you mean to say?
me:...i dunno
belinda: ba ba bamba!

kenya: it smells like piss. you can't miss it.


Tuesday, September 16, 2003


today started off as a pretty crappy day but ended up peachy keen. man spanish at the end of the day with bianca and belinda...that totally makes my day.

anyway so this morning started off emo-ish...but i busted out with my taking back sunday so everything was meh. then in english bianca gave me a comic strip from bizarro...vegan at the world series (is that ball leather or "pleather"?) so that made me happy. then oh god on came the world's stupidest english class. so we're learning about the iroquois constitution or whatever...it's really boring and i don't care about it at all. so then she decides she's gonna run the class like this: ask people questions. if they don't know the answer, it doesn't matter. the entire class has to wait until that person can hopelessly scramble for some kind of bull shit answer. they answer the question? ask another one. such shit.

so of COURSE she called on me. luckilly i had an answer ready...and then she starts going off on a totally different tangent and i'm really lost. so i look desperatly around the room mouthing "help!" to anyone who will look at me...marcelino just stares at me with wide eyes going "i don't know!" shauna, the girl hopped up on some combination of caffeine and speed, doesn't feel like helping me either. (all the while drumming, with jittery hands on the side of her desk. whoa girl. lay off the drugs.)anyway so i managed to bs my way through the excruciating torture...i felt really bad for this girl britany though. arrrrgh that class sucks.

then second period wasn't too bad...we went over egyptian art. cool stuff.

third period. oh man. the chem quiz was hard and it made me sad...i was so lost. i really need to go in for help because i didn't know what the hell i was doing. i just threw down some numbers and hoped for the best. *sigh* and this time i really thought i had a handle on things. oh well.

fourth...trig..boring shit..what more can i say?

fifth....asian studies..i worked on some notecards for ap art and learned about the great wall of china or something..

lunch...ben and aaron amused us with their antics...they played with ben's ripped up shirt. haha. it was quite hilarious.

6th fun time! yayyyy! so i spaced out for a while drumming on the table and i realized that everyone on the other side of the room was staring at me

karim: whoa...you were staring in a really creepy way *everyone else on the other side of the room nods in agreement*
me: oh yeah i kinda zoned out
karim: i'm gonna stare at you
me: then i'm gonna stare at you!
so we had staring contests and then i tried to hide behind jennifer and she moved so i used my folder.

ms. q: do you guys wanna work today?
everyone: tomorrow!
belinda: pirates of tahiti!
bianca: fire!
me: bomb!
belinda: i'm a terrorist!

lol we asked belinda if she'd take bianca laura and i to knotts...

belinda: oh yeah my mom will take us
me: really?
belinda: no...her leg is broken

just the way she said that was hilarious...so we spent the rest of the period talking
i told them about jeff's song...

me: yeah it goes goodbye goodbye goodbye to the emo thing hello hello hello my love chrystine
bianca: aww
belinda:...my name's belinda

belinda: sometimes when i'm at the bus stop alone i take out my cell phone and pretend i'm talking to someone.

bianca: once there was an ugly barnacle. he was so ugly that everyone died. the end.

belinda: my mom used to cut my hair...then one time in the fourth grade she got drunk before picture day...i never let her off the hook

ms q: she's 9 she's having her first communion
karim: what is that, beer?

me: how did your mom break her leg?
belinda: she fell down the stairs (once again the delivery of that line was just so hilarious)

then mike and i went a job hunting. i got applications from gelsons, loews cineplex, coffee bean, panda express, and the rocky mountain chocolate factory. i think the best would be gelsons because ricky works there yay! mike got some of those and a few different ones.

so now i have to fill em out and turn em back in. w00t.

i want a job!

oh yeah i went to AFS today and the president guy goes "yeah i'm not gonna lie to you it's expensive" it's $4,000. ouch. but i told my parents and they think that it's a good idea for me to go...it's a good experience and looks good for college...so it sounds like they're gonna let me go.

bah knotts scary farm seems to be falling through and that makes me sad....bianca still seems optimistic though.


AWWWWWW! I have to say that is the cutest thing EVER!

haha sorry i was caught up in the moment.

i actually said "aww" aloud. lol

i think i'm gonna go to gelson's today and see if they'll give me an application

but but but 4-10 on fridays?! ahhh! those are concert days! (usually). and football game days! god dammit he got me a card thingy and i'm not gonna use it? bah.


I made this!

AAF s3x!


Monday, September 15, 2003


i found it amusing that on my taking back sunday cd it said "if you like thursday and jimmy eat world you'll like this cd"

mmm whatever happened to jimmy eat world? i still wanna buy bleed american...haha i always like that song.

salt, sweat, sugar on the asphalt...


"Paris In Flames"

Now its time to wrap our fears in the night
And on the first day we'll dress this city in flames
After all the things you say
You hate me for being this way

Still you won't let go of old ideals
There is no headline to read at night
When the record slips and you're not holding the needle

We all sing the songs of separation
And we watch our lives bleed out through our hands
Thats how it was on the first day
We saw Paris in Flames

this is my favorite part of the song
I think it's going to rain, rain down

Here in this collapsed lung of a borough
There is no sunlight
The sunlight is manufactured in a windowless room
Distant and incoherent
Businessmen hang themselves

The lower cast side is a jukebox playing the deadman's crescendo
The needle is a vector
An intersection that well all must cross
A dimly lit hallway where shadows of moths decorate the walls
Discard this message
Burn this city down

Discard this message
Throw this bottle back in the ocean
Rip this page from the history books
Smash all the street signs
Erase all the maps
Forget my name
Forget my face
Because it's going to rain
And it never ends


We'll all look the same someday
And even now the robot starts to think
I wonder what it dreams

ah man "A0001" by Thursday is such a good song...nice and peaceful...sad it's only 30 seconds long. hehe.

interesting...
00:00 streets filled with noise/ each person controlling a machine
00:38 impact resonance
01:07 interior/ exterior reversal
05:03 timelapse collision
07:50 migratory path to massacre
13:45 radio tuned to the frequency of human coordinates
17:47 full identity removal/ the movie theater is on fire
18:53 sexuality pending survival
22:15 paris en flammes/ vive paris
23:27 the risk is part of the rhythm
26:30 life with regret
27:02 reuilding the house
30:44 footsteps of the silent armies
36:07 requiem for the fermanent midnight
40:52 preparation for the coming white days/ we are asleep in the arms of machines
42:32 full collapse on impact


I got rid of Kazaa today. Hopefully that will help my poor, dying, computer...I think i can survive without Kazaa but jeebus look at all these wonderful bands that i would have never heard of if it weren't for Kazaa....like Alien Ant Farm, Taking Back Sunday, Thursday, Phantom Planet, Suicide Machines...etc. etc. i'm sure there are more.

anyway so after waiting a fricking long time for the dermatologist i finally got in a room dealy...amused myself by measuring my height (5' 3" with chucks on...i didn't feel like taking them off so...5' 2"?)...then finally the doctor came in. Rawr! You know why the pills weren't working? They're for the wrong kind of acne! AHHHH! That is the stupidest thing ever i've been taking medication for some other kind of acne for almost 2 months now. gahhhhh. so anyway she took a look and was like "oh yeah that stuff is for inflammatory acne that's not what you have." So she prescribed some other crap and she said it would take like 3 months to kick in. oh well i hope this crap works. otherwise i'll have to go on something really strong like what sami is on.

god damned HMOs or whatever was keeping me from seeing a dermatologist. they made me go through all this crap before writing me a referral. i hate that. i can't just go straight to the dermatologist because it costs like $500. that's ridiculous. It's only like $10 with insurance but they make me go through my regular doctor first. blah. well at least i get to see her from now on.

hmm...Kim asked me if i wished i talked to my parents more...hmm i dunno not really. I've been used to not being close to my parents for so long now that i can't imagine it any other way...if they suddenly tried to talk to me i'd probably just give them one word responses and scurry off to my room. that's how it usually goes...i get home and then my parents get home...sometimes my dad barges into my room to ask me about my day and i just try to get him out as soon as possible. i dunno it's hard for me to talk to my parents (especially my dad) because i just get...annoyed. and fight a lot. so i just avoid talking to them at all. they just leave me alone and i leave them alone and everyone is happy that way. it's like that comic "zits" i'm a lot like jeremy.


Chrystine said Nik (Nick?) is gonna be Frank when he goes trick or treating with us so i'm gonna be Donnie Darko!!!

Mike said Jake Gyllenhaal would make a bad batman *tear*

El barco de piratas!

me: Pepe usually wakes up early pero hoy....acosto tarde. (but today he woke up late)
bianca: i wrote down "no acosto"
me: he didn't wake up?! at all?
bianca: nope
me: he's dead? no Pepe!!
bianca: hahahah

Mr. Erdman: if i were gonna make guillotine I'd make it out of paper...slow and painful
erdman: see i believe that when you go to hell god, whoever she, he...it may be makes you do what you hate. see for me that would be grading lab reports. I would be stuck in a room with two million lab reports all in gigantic stacks. Then when i got close to the bottom two million more would fall out of nowhere.

today was a truly boring day at school.

hmmm 2nd period i got my quiz back and i did well. w00t.
3rd period....took an essay quiz. lucky me i got the essay question i predicted so i think i did okay
4th period...trig gah. what more can i say?
5th period....Asian Studies. the easiest and most boring class of all time. Mike and i spend most of it talking and messing with each other. Like stabing each other with pens and kicking backpacks and all the other lovely things that keep us from going insane from boredom.

that couple that sits next to me in asian studies is really starting to get on my nerves. maybe it's because i sit next to them. eh.

6th period...spanish yay! heheh that class is fun.

bianca: where's a place with a lot of hot guys?
me: Brazil!
bianca: no...Paris!
me: have you ever been to France?
bianca: nope

hah then after school Bianca, Belinda, and Laura met Jeff and Bianca asked Jeff if there were male cheerleaders at Loyola. She was sad to learn there were not.


Haha Otto and I had an interesting chat about confidence...

Ooooh Ricky said Gelsons is hiring right now! Maybe I'll check it out. I don't like his hours though...(He works at the bakery) 4-10 on fridays and anytime on the weekends. 4-10 on fridays...:-/



interesting...


New Shades of Pink

Many in the music business are citing Pink's upcoming "Try This" as the most anticipated album of the fall, even without hearing it or knowing much about it. But while she did reunite with Linda Perry, the producer who guided much of her 2001 breakthrough album "M!ssundaztood," the bulk of the album (Due Nov11) spurs from a perhaps surprising collaboration with Tim Armstrong, the singer-guitarist of Rancid.

Armstrong produced and co-wrote nine of the album's songs, including the first single, "Trouble," a playful track set to reach radio Sept. 29.

Armstrong and Pink connected earlier this year when a friend invited her to a video shoot for the Transplants, Armstrong's hip-hop-tinged side group with Blink-182's Travis Barker and Rob Ashton.

"Tim came up to me and said, 'I've got some songs for you,'" Pink says. "When the Transplants were on tour opening for the Foo Fighters, I went on the road with them. Tim had a studio on the bus, and we wrote and recorded four songs right off. We did 10 songs in a week and a half and that was the bulk of the record."


yes interesting indeed....


Sunday, September 14, 2003


*tear* the Thursday show is on Halloween. Hahah no way man I'm gonna be hanging out with Kimberly and Chrystine and whatnot. They WERE playing at the Glasshouse in Pomona...but i didn't like them too much then. Bah Warlain gets to see them.

They sell Thursday shirts at Hot Topic. That's sad. I don't know why...it just is.


it would be so sweet if i worked at the coffee bean. or trader joes.


YAY! Today I went to Amoeba Music with my parents to use Maia's gift certificate (for my bday which was...how many months ago? hehe) to buy some UBER awesome cds.

Holy crap! Amoeba was huge! I was expecting some small record store but it was gigantic! It had its own parking lot (with the little automatic gate things and everything) and it was full. my parents said we're not going back there ever again. oh yeah! and we passed jet rag on the way there so now i know where that is....$1 sale! I gotta go there some time...they just throw out piles of clothing in the parking lot and everything is $1. sweet.

Well I narrowed it down to Sum 41 (Does This Look Infected?), The Used (The Used...i didn't want maybe memories because it was all live stuff), All American Rejects (I forget what it's called...is it self titled?), Taking Back Sunday (Tell All Your Friends), Thursday (Full Collapse), Goldfinger (Hangups), and Phantom Planet (The Guest). So after a while of thinking about it i decided to get the last four i mentioned.

Wheeee! Thursday is really good everyone should download "Understanding in a Car Crash" that's my favorite song....Goldfinger of course is pure sex....Taking Back Sunday download "Timberwolves at New Jersey"...and Phantom Planet everyone loves Phantom Planet!

anyway so i still have a giant list of CDs i wanna get including Rancid (Indestructible), all the other Dropkick Murphys cds, Weird Al (Poodle Hat and Running With Scissors), The Offspring (Self Titled), and of course the new Aquabats/ Offspring cds when they come out.

I asked my parents if i could get a job since i don't have soccer anymore...they said yes...at least getting a job looks good for college. now that i can't get a stupid sports scholarship or anything...grrr that pisses me off. i realized that i can't play next year either since i'll be so out of shape/practice and i'll have more aps next year.

:-( we went to big 5 and i saw all the soccer balls and cleats and stuff and it made me sad...well my dad doesn't have to spend money on new cleats now...bah i know i said i hated soccer and complained the entire season last year and i hated ms.kehr but i'm really gonna miss soccer this year. i'm not playing AYSO either so that's the end. bah.


hahah "before you were a sperm" is a good phrase

me: have you ever heard of hoobastank?
warlain: i heard them on the radio before you were a sperm
me: what are you talking about? they were on the radio like...2 years ago
warlain: obviously i'm calling you a year old
me:...oh.


YAYYYYYYY I got my Hoobastank/AAR ticket! Bah i think AAR is headlining but that's okay because i like them too. bah the ticketmaster at the mall was broken so i had to go to the one in the marina. i couldn't say "hoobastank" because of my stupid stuffy nose.

guy at tower: what tickets are you looking for?
me: hoobastank
guy: hoobawha?
me: hoobastank
guy: wha? how do you spell that?
me: H-O-O-B-A-S-T-A-N-K
ticketmaster guy: what tickets are you looking for?
me: *sigh* hoobastank
ticketmaster guy: oh with the all american rejects?
me: yeah october 24th
ticketmaster guy: oh okay

and then i got the ticket w00t! yesh tis also Kim's Bday.

Offspring shirt i got! it took me a long long time to choose a shirt. I really wanted an Ixnay one since it's my favorite CD but they didn't have the shirts in my size. oh well this one is cool. I don't have many purple shirts.

bah! the cd is actually gonna come out december 2nd not november 11th but i don't care....the offspring new cd!!! squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.


Saturday, September 13, 2003


PoolGuyPaul: if you called the popsicle Hank then you'd end up saying "yesterday i was sucking on Hank"


Wow I am so happy! What a change. The entire week (especially Thursday) I was feeling kinda emo and it seemed like everything was crashing down...and now it seems like I can only think about the good things that are happening!

As a pessimist and cynic I must, of course, believe that somewhere there is a trap and somehow it's all going to come down in the end...

But right now i don't care because I am so frigging happy!!!

This calls for some SKA!


YES! my dad said i can go to the concert but he said someone has to go with me...yesh well anyway it looks like a friggin awesome concert and if i don't go i'll be so pissed because it will be the 3rd time i've missed Hoobastank.


YES YES YES!

HOOBASTANK is playing with the ALL AMERICAN REJECTS on October 24th! That's a Friday!!! Finally!!! AHHHH! I must go to this show.

and you know you want to come with me!

It's at the Palladium squeeee.


Catch 22 is playing with Slick Shoes in Anaheim in November...I really really wanna see them but Anaheim?

blah.

everything good happens in November!


YESSSSSSS! The Offspring CD "Splinter" (Formerly Chinese Democracy) is coming out November 11th!!!! It's been a long, long time.

The Aquabats say the DVD is "in the can" but they have yet to announce a date.


Jake Gyllenhaal was up to play Batman but nooooo that other guy took it away from him.

screw you...whoever the new Batman is!


Okay i've seen that commercial too many times and it's finally bothered me enough to write about it. i'm talking about the tampax pearl commercial with the girl wearing white who puts her tampon on a windowsil and then has to retrieve it (after it falls off because she's STUPID) using a complicated mechanism involving assorted tampons and pads. the one question i gotta ask is...

why would you put a tampon on a WINDOWSIL?! a windowsil! how stupid must you be?!

anyway that's all i wanted to say. commercials these days...

yeah i watch too much tv.


Friday, September 12, 2003


ooh yeah and i got a b on my trig test!!!!! ah man that totally made my day. i was so sure i had gotten a c or worse....

oh yeah so my parents said if i got straight a's i could get a nicer guitar...like a fender or something. yeah they don't think i'm gonna get straight a's. neither do i...especially with trig and ap chem and whatnot.

erdman: hey if you didn't like someone i wonder if you could just attach razor blades to the bottom of a frisbee...not that i actually do these things.

hhaha erdman is funny. even though he doesn't like vegetarians. i think i'm gonna wear my vegan shirt on monday.


i can really relate to that song....


Man Kim and i talked on the phone for 4 hours...just re-reading funny stuff from the speedlimits...like how kimberly plays hide and go seek in her brain...lol she was making funny noises.


The moral of the story is everything floats....and never give Kimberly a klondike bar...especially at 12 a.m.

Kimboly24: funnky bunny
Kimboly24: bunny's squel
Kimboly24: or go enferignergnmw

Kimboly24: or they make nibble sounds
THE gwenanobi: kim if lois goes to bed before us
Kimboly24: thats some opinions i've ehard
THE gwenanobi: that's sad
Kimboly24: she wont
because the hamburger ate her
THE gwenanobi: lol
THE gwenanobi: was that a "special" klondike bar?
Kimboly24: no..yes...they always fall for that
THE gwenanobi: haha
Kimboly24: ooh, like the special brownies
THE gwenanobi: hahah
Kimboly24: in playing mona lisa
Kimboly24: the parents eat them all
THE gwenanobi: yeah i gotta see that
Kimboly24: haha, and then they get all high
Kimboly24: t the sky
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: to*

Kimboly24: like a pie
Kimboly24: i dont know why
Kimboly24: and weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
THE gwenanobi: i think we should go to bed
Kimboly24: we should, eh
Kimboly24: do the right thing
THE gwenanobi: but i'm not tired
Kimboly24: but do we always do what we think
THE gwenanobi: i don't wanna
Kimboly24: no, so whyshould we
Kimboly24: because it is good for us
Kimboly24: but if we do
Kimboly24: we will just lay there
Kimboly24: and lay there
THE gwenanobi: i know i'm sick i should get lots of sleep
Kimboly24: for hours
THE gwenanobi: and think
Kimboly24: and then it will be morning
THE gwenanobi: yeah! so might as well spend my time online talking to you instead of laying in bed thinking
Kimboly24: and we havent got sleep
Kimboly24: therefore i am
THE gwenanobi: ahhh lois just left
Kimboly24: haha
Kimboly24: she didnt got to bed though, she jsut left
Kimboly24: like the seasons
THE gwenanobi: true
THE gwenanobi: probably homework
Kimboly24: they come and go
THE gwenanobi: fo sho
Kimboly24: we have recently found out that time traveling machines will be available in 6 years
THE gwenanobi: i need one of those
THE gwenanobi: but then i'd screw up the future
THE gwenanobi: so maybe not
Kimboly24: so get a time traveling machine and travel 6 years and then bring back a time traveling machine so you can time travel
THE gwenanobi: lol yeah but who knows how i'll affect the future?
THE gwenanobi: maybe everything happens for a reason
Kimboly24: due to the irish americans being so loving of alcohol they have changed their names to drunken americans
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: everything happens for a reason
THE gwenanobi: everything floats
Kimboly24: if i smack you on the head with a water ball
Kimboly24: it's because you deserved it
Kimboly24: and that was the reason
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: and now you will learn your lesson for about 5.6 seconds
THE gwenanobi: hey
THE gwenanobi: lol
THE gwenanobi: i found out
THE gwenanobi: about knotts
Kimboly24: na, na, na, na, na, knotts, knotts beery farm, we're going to knotts
Kimboly24: and?
Kimboly24: den...
THE gwenanobi: okay it's 35 bucks
Kimboly24: jim carrey is playing the drums!!!
THE gwenanobi: yey!
Kimboly24: okay, 35 pesos
THE gwenanobi: lol
THE gwenanobi: you wish
Kimboly24: which is about three dollars and 50 cents
Kimboly24: according to...
Kimboly24: my watch
THE gwenanobi: haha you wish
Kimboly24: purple cheese, rhymes with brocollis
THE gwenanobi: the earlier you go the cheaper it is
THE gwenanobi: kim shhhh it's gonna be okay
Kimboly24: buy it today on DVD
Kimboly24: dont be hatin'
THE gwenanobi: are you quoting the tv?
Kimboly24: we'll give you two bucks back on your next pizza,,,
Kimboly24: just some stuff
Kimboly24: i have a tv..in my watch
Kimboly24: my watch has everything
Kimboly24: you looking for something sucker?
Kimboly24: who is your daddy and what does he do?
THE gwenanobi: your clothes
THE gwenanobi: give them to me
Kimboly24: your clothes, give them to me

Kimboly24: no, i cant type
Kimboly24: fast
Kimboly24: at
THE gwenanobi: hahah
Kimboly24: all
Kimboly24: help
Kimboly24: i need somebody
Kimboly24: help
Kimboly24: not jsut anybody
THE gwenanobi: heeeeelllp
Kimboly24: when i was young
Kimboly24: so much younger than today,,,
Kimboly24: i live for it
Kimboly24: so, jen
Kimboly24: if you had an apple, what would you name it...
Kimboly24: ?
THE gwenanobi: uterus
Kimboly24: haha, and the banana?
Kimboly24: and the cucumber?
Kimboly24: and the maraca?
Kimboly24: wait never mind
THE gwenanobi: oh yeah
THE gwenanobi: you know it
Kimboly24: what am i doing with my hair, i cant see!!!
THE gwenanobi: lol kim you're so high right now
Kimboly24: PUT THE FINGER IN THE LIGHT SOCKET AFTER YOU LICK YOUR FINGER
Kimboly24: no, i am not

Kimboly24: i am quite low
THE gwenanobi: i'm gonna save this convo because tomorrow you won't remember saying this stuff
Kimboly24: haha, diabteics get low
THE gwenanobi: ahh that's true
Kimboly24: instead of high
THE gwenanobi: i'm pretty low too
Kimboly24: and they act the same way
THE gwenanobi: they can get high too
Kimboly24: and my teacher did a dance for us
THE gwenanobi: wheeeee
Kimboly24: so we gave him a banana
THE gwenanobi: ignition they call it an obsession but i think it's kinda bitchin i think it's kinda neat
Kimboly24: and cheeriosin a container for butter
Kimboly24: m
Kimboly24: u
Kimboly24: f
Kimboly24: f
Kimboly24: i
Kimboly24: n
Kimboly24: s
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: thats what i want, that what i need...the m-u-f-f-i-n-s
Kimboly24: muffins for you and muffins for me
Kimboly24: muffins are jsut so damn yummy
Kimboly24: you want some food to eat
eat some muffins, they;re the best treat
THE gwenanobi: yeyyy
Kimboly24: dont eat cake, dont eat pie
Kimboly24: eat some muffins, i'll tell you why
THE gwenanobi: kimberly!
THE gwenanobi: in a week
THE gwenanobi: we get to see
THE gwenanobi: hot hot heat
Kimboly24: piartes day
Kimboly24: you interupted my jig
Kimboly24: my muffin rambling jig
Kimboly24: all ruined
THE gwenanobi: bwahahaha
Kimboly24: like a smased muffin on the pavement after a car ran it over
Kimboly24: and a man peed on it

Kimboly24: ruined
THE gwenanobi: eeew
Kimboly24: see, its no good, anymore
Kimboly24: you cant do anything with it...
THE gwenanobi: eat it!
Kimboly24: unless you;re chry, she would lick it...well i hope not
Kimboly24: maybe if there as no peeing part
Kimboly24: we could throw the muffin in the ocean
Kimboly24: and it would...
THE gwenanobi: even with the pee!
Kimboly24: dun dun
THE gwenanobi: no they float
Kimboly24: dun
Kimboly24: float!!!
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: no, you beat me again
Kimboly24: beat me like a rug
THE gwenanobi: i know
THE gwenanobi: bug in a rug!
Kimboly24: or a brat
Kimboly24: with a baseball bat
Kimboly24: good night, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite, if they do hit them with a shoe...tada
THE gwenanobi: are ya leavin?
Kimboly24: no
THE gwenanobi: oh okay
Kimboly24: reciting things
Kimboly24: kabee?
THE gwenanobi: baybee?
Kimboly24: no kaybee
THE gwenanobi: toys>
Kimboly24: no,no , they sell muffins not toys
Kimboly24: toys =muffins
Kimboly24: muffins=sex
Kimboly24: toys+sex= 2muffins!!!!
THE gwenanobi: lol
THE gwenanobi: alright well i'm tired now
THE gwenanobi: i'm gonna go
Kimboly24: awww

Kimboly24: now i'm gone

Kimboly24: energy!!!

THE gwenanobi: you're gone?
Kimboly24: cant be created or destroyed
THE gwenanobi: see you're tired too
THE gwenanobi: go to sleep
Kimboly24: no
THE gwenanobi: yes
Kimboly24: i'mnot tired
THE gwenanobi: yes you are
Kimboly24: but if you go
THE gwenanobi: *hypnotizes you*
Kimboly24: then i will be ruined
THE gwenanobi: you are tired
Kimboly24: like the muffin
Kimboly24: hey
Kimboly24: only i can do that
THE gwenanobi: do you know the muffin man?
Kimboly24: shazaam
THE gwenanobi: lol
THE gwenanobi: okay really
THE gwenanobi: i'm going
THE gwenanobi: goodnight
Kimboly24: :-(
THE gwenanobi: bye byeeee talk to you tomorrow
Kimboly24: sad
Kimboly24: i will attack you
THE gwenanobi: don't be sad, i'll live
Kimboly24: thats what you say
Kimboly24: be lcujy
Kimboly24: be lucky...
Kimboly24: that
THE gwenanobi: wtf?
Kimboly24: you
THE gwenanobi: lol
Kimboly24: float!!!
THE gwenanobi: hah bye


Knotts Berry Farm update:

$25...October 3rd, which is a friday
$30...November 1st, which is a saturday

all the other days are either more expensive or on wednesdays or thursdays.

anyway....start thinking about it if ya wanna go.....people you know who you are...we need drivers...

okay yes.


nice people make me happy.

i had a nice chat with kim.

and some other people.

yay.


Thursday, September 11, 2003


i just added a bunch of other stuff to the playlist...tool goldfinger dropkick murphys hoobastank greenday...etc.


Mike I just want you to know that I know we fight and make fun of each other and stuff but i never mean it...and honestly, yes, i would care if you died...so you don't think people would care but i would. i would say i love you but that word is so meaningless...or maybe just confusing...i dunno.

i was feeling pretty shitty today and i'm sorry to say i took it out on some people.

i feel like things are starting to slip away already and things have just begun. It's hard to get out of the hole once you've dug yourself in.

i wrote another emo song. i only write remotely serious things when i'm in an emo mood.

sue...thanks for listening...

i'm so scared about my trig test...i think i got a c...maybe failed it...

i thought i failed my chem test but i got a b. that cheered me up slightly.

i think trig is going to be my hardest class this year. the thing that pisses me off the most is that i didn't understand it and i didn't ask anyone for help.

i made a playlist of Taking Back Sunday, The Used, Thursday, Phantom Planet, AAF, and The Offspring.

ahh music.

i think spanish class is the highlight of my day. hanging out with my pirate crew and writing songs...today we started one called "en peru" about how peru is penis in portuguese...bianca and i told belinda about all these inside jokes we have and she was laughing....hehe it was fun.

arnold in a speedo? brown bag water bottle.


i wrote a very short creepy poem:

poor jen.
she is sick.
why doesn't she just
drop down dead?
that would be
too easy.

and now i'm off to band practice! yay yay yay!


Wednesday, September 10, 2003


i wrote a song...i like to think it's TBSish but with lyrics that aren't as good. i think i'll call it "a minority"

what a time tonight, what a time.

i'm glad for things. no not like the j.lo song. just glad.


Timberwolves At New Jersey

Come on, come on, lets go
There’s just a few things
I think that you should know
Those words at best
were worse than teenage poetry
Fragment ideas
and too many pronouns
Stop it, come on
You’re not making sense now
You can't make them want you
They're all just laughing

Literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that's what girls dreams are made of
And that's all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don't (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don't)

You have it or you
You see how much time you're wastin?
You're coward of seperatin

Stop it, come on
you know I can’t help it
I got the mic
and you got the mosh pit
What will it take
to make you admit that you were wrong?
Was his demise so carefully constructed?
Well let's just say I got what I wanted
Cause in the end it’s always the same (you're still gone)
Lets go

Literate and stylish (literate and Stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that's what girls dreams are made of
And that's all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don't (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don't) don't

This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun (gun,gun)
Remind me not to ever act this way again
This is you trying hard to
make sure that you're seen
With a girl on your arm
and your heart on your sleeve
Remind me not to ever think of you again
This is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again (again)
again (again)

This is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
And my eye on the scope
down the barrel of a gun
I'll never act this way again

Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
Don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
Don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse

(I know somethin that you don't know)
This is me with the words
(I know somethin that you don't know)
And you sure don’t
Hold your, hold your breath
(I know somethin that you don't know)
Because you'll only make things worse
Hold your breath
Because you'll only make things worse
Hold your breath
(I know somethin that you don't know)
because you'll only make things worse

Don't hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse!


fork319: fuck
fork319: is this fatty
THE gwenanobi: lol how did you figure it out?
fork319: fuck
fork319: it isnt is it
fork319: im going to beat some ass
fork319: ok, so your name is jen
fork319: i think
THE gwenanobi: nah, it's ashley but jen works
fork319: wtf
THE gwenanobi: lol
fork319: ok, so your a dude
fork319: is this rossi
THE gwenanobi: do dudes have penises?
fork319: fuck
fork319: not rossi
fork319: fuck
fork319: this is too damn hard
fork319: can i get hint
THE gwenanobi: mmmm nope you gotta figure it out by yourself
fork319: your friends r leaving
THE gwenanobi: they're not my friends...anyone who eats my children isn't really a friend, anyway
fork319: thats deep
fork319: brownie
fork319: fuck
fork319: not browie
THE gwenanobi: hahaha
fork319: if i guess yoru name youll tell me right
THE gwenanobi: lol maybe
THE gwenanobi: i think you'll figure it out soon anyway
fork319: y do u say that
THE gwenanobi: because you're smart...and there aren't many people left anyway
THE gwenanobi: okay i'll give you a hint
THE gwenanobi: red/
THE gwenanobi: that's all you get
THE gwenanobi: red.
fork319: leigh
fork319: i win
fork319: wheres my cookie
THE gwenanobi: hahah in your pocket
fork319: no
fork319: no its not
THE gwenanobi: then you must have eaten it ;-x
THE gwenanobi: :-X
fork319: is the name right
THE gwenanobi: hehe maybe
fork319: its yes or no
THE gwenanobi: yes
THE gwenanobi: hehehe
fork319: wtf
fork319: no
fork319: no your not
THE gwenanobi: hahaha fooled you again!
fork319: youre fucking full of shit
THE gwenanobi: only after a trip to the bathroom


if you keep in mind that i've never met this girl before in my life it's hilarious!

CutieGirl2110: who is this
THE gwenanobi: ashley
CutieGirl2110: ashley who
THE gwenanobi: cusik
THE gwenanobi: lol who else could it be?
CutieGirl2110: do i know you??
THE gwenanobi: you probably don't remember me
THE gwenanobi: i met you at registration
CutieGirl2110: are you the redhead one
THE gwenanobi: yep that's me
CutieGirl2110: ok i remember you no
CutieGirl2110: now*
THE gwenanobi: awesome
THE gwenanobi: so how's life?
CutieGirl2110: could be better right now what about you
THE gwenanobi: i'd say that statement accurately depicts it
THE gwenanobi: so what classes are ya taking?
THE gwenanobi: (i might have asked you before i have the worst memory ever)
CutieGirl2110: lol it's cool
CutieGirl2110: AP american history, bio 2 honors, academic eng, algerba 2, driver's ed, spanish 3
THE gwenanobi: drivers ed
THE gwenanobi: fun
CutieGirl2110: yah first period with lambie=sleep
THE gwenanobi: hahah first period with anyone=sleep
CutieGirl2110: yah opretty much
THE gwenanobi: so how's volleyball?
CutieGirl2110: ummm it's good we ahve a game tomorrow at 7
CutieGirl2110: hey i'm sry but i really gotta go cuz i still have to study something so i'll just ttyl
THE gwenanobi: okay
THE gwenanobi: byebye


man my computer is really fucked up...it's either kazaa, aim, internet explorer,
windows media player, all of the above, or my entire computer. i think i'm gonna delete kazaa...i dunno no more buddy lists...ahh i dunno how to fix it! this makes me sad :-(.


nobody liked the pink checkered skin i made elliot on blogskins.com so i took it down...nobody else really likes it either...except elliot...i guess that's all that matters.


she thinks she's not a lot of it...her number must be 7....no bait, and i swear it's like a lightbulb.


One Ray Of Sunlight

Goodness sometimes things get bad
But I swear
I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy and then...

Things don't go as I planned
But I swear I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
And I guess if this isn't the end
Maybe we can be happy again



*shauna walks by with a shirt saying something like "too busy to fcuk"*
mike: shauna's shirt should say "too ugly to fcuk"
me: which is why you get sex all the time, right?
mike: *shakes my hand* that was a good one

mike: if i was going to be gay, i'd be gay with jeff

mike: bitch! *does jeff imitation*
me:ahahahahah

i'm a pirate, are you?

it's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonley day

damn beeny found out i'm a closet Taking Back Sunday fan..i'm not a fan! i just like Timberwolves at New Jersey...and some other songs. bah. hahah

i'm so tired of....a lot of things. you know why? because i partied my brains out and woke up with Orlando Bloom (Bianca knocked up Prince William).

oh yeah and we have sex with everyone in the village. muahahaha.



obviously i have no life but i just had the most fun EVER! Warlain taught me how to download buddy lists through kazaa (and taught me how to stop my stuff from getting stolen yay! i'm a greedy bastard!) so i downloaded one and it was so fun!!! i figured out that it belonged to "ashley" who lives in baldwin, PA...i was talking to her boyfriend...lol. oh man it was great. and i have red hair...and what else? anyway it was really fun and they were all trying to figure out who i am and...well you probably think it's really lame but it's my idea of fun.

i'm sure you understand beeny...anyway i'm bored so that's what i do.


Tuesday, September 09, 2003


tini bikiniLdy: i always wanted to be in enquirer but for something true, so then i can be like.............
tini bikiniLdy: i partied all nite and woke up with mark mcgrath, orlando bloom, and johny depp in the same bed
THE gwenanobi: lol!
tini bikiniLdy: now im turned on
THE gwenanobi: hahah

i found pictures! of wittle micho and wittle jefwy! hahahahhah.


bianca makes fun of me because i can't roll my r's. perro. guitarra. arreglar. damn.


i want to play the guitarrrrr but i left it at beeny's.


la la la what did we do today? i'm still sick...oh joy. english was boring crap...i got moved next to lorenzo and...brittany? hmm she wears checkers. so instead of listening to ms. kim babble on about the declaration of independence (what is this U.S. History? i took it during the summer just so i wouldn't have to go through this shit!) i enertained the thought of owning a pair of homestar chucks. i shared the idea with chry and she agreed that da cheat chucks would be hot s3x. lol. so i drew crappy pictures.

ap art history...ooh stonehenge. awesome.

chem...we had a lab and i dropped a piece of glassware. they don't call me butter fingers for nothing! I didn't break it though so i didn't get any applause. some girl broke a flask or something and we clapped for her. mr erdman was excited about the first piece of broken glassware for the year. lol.

4th period...gah! trig! i'm lost...

5th period...asian studies. lol did we actually do anything today? nope. just sat around. mike and i discussed what life would be like if men had periods. lol. and then we talked about tampons. eww non aplicator...

then 6th was fun! we read our essays...mine was about all the concerts i've seen this summer...Jennifer Dang (Dang Jennifer!) turned around after i mentioned i had seen phantom planet and she said that she had seen them in concert too! yey! and she has the guest! ooh. then bianca and i colored nametags..belinda and i talked about stuff

belinda: ...i like acoustic guitars *in ashanti 'ooh baby' voice* john mayer!

belinda:i wanna play the guitar *makes drumming hand motions*
me: ahahah did you just go like this? *makes drumming hand motions*
belinda: hahahha i did!

bianca: i can play the base *makes hand motions like she's playing a gigantic classical base...with a bow and such*

then i told belinda to get chalk so we could write on the board and she didn't want ms. quitegui to see her so she was crawling on the floor...that was funny. and after all that i just walked up to the board and stole some chalk. haha.

then after school we went to play DOD!!!! it was so much fun! Man i needed that....i haven't played in so long! i played with kim, chry, ben, aaron, and mike. 2 hours of computer games...yay! ben and aaron did really well for first timers....it's in their blood...i like the tunnels! in anzio! anzio is my favorite map, i think. kim's favorite is donner...kim owns donner.

then in the car after DOD oh man the funniest thing happened....we drove by a certain person's house and a certain person was outside making another certain person freak out....very very hilarious.

ben: you made the children go crazy!

PiratesofTahiti! PoT! hahaha. wheeee.


Monday, September 08, 2003


oh...i don't care. i should really do some homework. i really like this song...

Thursday: Understanding In A Car Crash

Splintered piece of glass falls in the seat of gets caught
These broken windows, open locks, reminders of the youth we lost
In trying so hard to look away from you
We followed white lines to the sunset
I crash my car everyday the same way

Time to let this pass
(the time it takes, the time it takes to let go)
Time runs through our veins.
(it starts and stops and starts and stops again)
We don't stand a chance in this threadbare time
(to take time to break the cycle)

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twlight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I dont want to feel this way forever
A dead letter marked return to sender

The broken watch you gave me turns into a compass
It's hands still point to the same time 12:03, our last goodbye

So push the seats back a little further
Roll the windos down and take a breath
I can see the headlights coming
They paint the world in red and broken glass
The spinning hubcaps set the tempo for the music of a broken window
When the lights are on and the cameras click
We open up the lens to broken glass and it's over in a flash

I'll never understand
Understanding in a car crash


...if you need me i'll listen....


OMG YAY! that made me really really happy! I searched for my name on google and it brought up my blogskins account where i posted my homestar template (my old blog) and people really liked it!!! YAY! they gave me 5 stars and such! Whoa i needed that.


GOD DAMN STUPID POP UPS LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

arrrgh you know what's ironic? the ad is to STOP POP UPS. arrrrrgh. oh no i've fallen for that one. i was stupid and downloaded something stupid. "it can't hurt can it?" i thought. well i never listen to my mother (don't download things! she says. that's how you messed it up last time!) so now my computer is all fucked up. i thought i fixed it but it's still messed up. now i'm just trying to hide the fact that i fucked up my computer again. "why isn't the cd burner working? why do i have to use yours? uhh i dunno mom it just stopped working all of a sudden."

hahah i suck at lying.


Home
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere And their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tommorow, no tommorow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you 'Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very Mad World Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me